i think its quite intolerable how some teachers just be insufferable twits for the sake of being insufferable twits

today was a prime example as we were made to stand in a single file so that everyone gets to soak up the sun. or maybe it was some other stupid reason like so that we could be observed at one glance. made no sense at all and was totally uncalled for.

i dont think its right that some teachers just assume control of a class if the cts or pcts are not around, its not their business

after tolerating the sun we went back to class. and were promptly interrupted again by the same unreasonable person. and for what? just to tell us how bad our "housekeeping" is, then left. like WHAT ON EARTH?! do these people really have no life or what?! o.O surely there must be better, more useful and more LIKEABLE things to do as a hobby?!

then during honours day i get my chem textbook taken away because i was reading it during the awards presentation. by the same person of course. i think that makes zero sense, by the way. what could possibly be contructive about watching a bunch of award receipients which you dont know recieve awards? you dont know who they are, you dont know what they did to deserve it, so why the recognition?

in case you award receipients were wondering i only started reading chem after all you guys had received, which finished in like the first ten minutes.

so i try to do something constructive by actually revising for the coming exam for a subject that i am weak in, and here is someone stopping me from doing it and insisting that i focus on a pointless and useless thing. wheres the logic in that? not to mention that there is a certain element of hypocrisy involved here.

see, a teacher wants me to pay attention, so obviously he/she thinks that paying attention is the right thing to do and everyone should be doing it

but what? this particular teacher does NOT pay attention, instead he/she decides to busy him/herself with looking out for people who DONT pay attention, and in the process not paying attention him/herself

argh the irony

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sigh i think i shall do badly again and be crowned king of the losers

today i just remembered what i have been wanting to blog about for the past few days. moring devotion.

well i couldnt agree more that we should at least help or TRY to help or MAKE AN EFFORT to actually HELP ourselves before asking help from God.

if you dont try how do you know that you need help? if you dont try the only thing you need help in is to have the drive to try and help yourself.

particularly during this exam period, i know of at least ONE person who doesnt study yet simply prays and asks God for help before the exams. somehow always manages to scrape through, how unfair, but nvm it doesnt concern me =/

for me i thank God for giving me the drive to study, to want so desperately to learn more, (for helping me turn chem from a subject i hate to a subject which i have quite a large interest in now (: ).

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today actually started off quite well, (wait it was chinese first period what am i saying?!) then as the day went on things got slightly screwed up as mr azmi almost exploded because i was doing the stack of core math worksheets on inequals during core math class while he was explaining about trransformation and shearing. that and tien en talking back to his face and showing almost as much disrespect as i do to wrg (shift all the letters forward by one)

but unlike wrg, mr azmi doesnt deserve it one bit. sorry sir.

then i proceeded to explode when i got immensely frustrated at not being able to crack a problem and people not SEEMING to give a damn about helping me despite me asking countless times. but oh well i know perfectly well that they probably didnt have a 'heck care' attitude.

getting frustrated while doing math is bad cause you cant think straight

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i am quite troubled at the amount of careless mistakes i make while doing the math problems and one look at the chem paper tells me that i still have quite a lot to catch up on

sigh

o.o scary straits times... seems that now WRG would have every freaking right to sue me for posting about how lousy and screwed up she is at teaching and being a person overall

oh well i suppose ranting that the law is against free speech shall be pointless as this is one of those cases where one must just mindlessly submit himself to authority without question.

well what i feel is that all teachers deserve SOME level of respect, but just how much they are given is ultimately decided by the students. about this whole "cannot teach" thing, i think that its only terribly wrong and uncalled for if that person has no proof or evidence that that particular teacher cant, in that sense. for me, i conducted an experiment by using ian's zuoye.

i copied down the exact same answers, to see whether who she marks makes a difference in how much she grades them

turns out i got one question wrong while ian got the exact same question right. WITH THE EXACT SAME ANSWER.

(not to mention that ian's answer was too stupid to be marked correct in the first place)

hence i can conclude that wrg cannot teach, but i am not allowed to express myself even though i have 'proof'. gah dammit

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nooo missing chem on thursday, argh i really need it and want it. just have to go find pexx i guess

wasting valuable time giong through crap o level paper =/

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feeling slightly better though still sneezing out voluminous amounts of mucus and snot.

darn i feel as if im so far behind on revision, i'm only kinda done with chem and ihs, stil have ALL OF math left....aaaaaaaaaaah

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oh no i think i'm degenerating into shallow posts that just log about the days events ):

oh no. started the day feeling depressed and MOODY cause of.. ermerm.. forgot heh ^^"
then i proceeded to sneeze out two gallons of mucus over the span of two hours?
i bet it was the sun from yesteday.... ooh how hot it was...
aaaah i might have dengue!!!! ooooooooh and somehow i'm not scared or freaking out or wdvwdv

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a slurpee is probably one of the best things in the world to have while walking under the scorching sun with no shade.

argh i hate the sun its so.... HOT and BRIGHT and HOT and HAPPY (and hot and hot and hot) :(

aha now theres another reason to hate my life cause i live in singapore..

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argh i havent done ANY revision today

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ian (no the other ian) has developed an eternal hatred for quotation marks ----> " " "

dope

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ahhhh sunday... best day of the week

did some unproductive studying with chris and becky, but at least i managed to memorise the mole chart! hah.

studying in a group doesnt neccesarily mean interacting! well for me at least, the other person is just there for presence to keep me focused, haha.

pastor edmund koh is VERY boring, but maybe if i tried listening then i might find that he's actually saying something useful no? :(

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children's day celebrations! i think MOST of the sec ones are extremely screwed up and bitchy and 'pai-kiah' (oh fine maybe just two :P). what with screwing around with the water balloons are being extremely bratty and childish.

ho hum i'f i'm being unaware please let me know instead of calling me obtuse and hypocritical and what not behind my back argh. all you un-blunt people.....

having most of the kids beg me to blast them was quite odd.

oh no due to unforseen circumstances my water 'bazooker' ran out of water while i was trying to gun down the kiddies... argh. bad next time we shall just get a hose =/

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ms rambutan tree was being quite odd and pmsy towards me today. humph

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argh i gotta studyyy, spent one whole week on chemmy chem and not really finished, still left core math and adv math and FIZZIKSSS

bleh. the end of yet another harrisonian post

hmm sorry i shall have to start off today's post on a dull note.

i think mdm xsh is possibly the most biased, most utterly prejudiced teacher i have had the misfortune to come across so far in my dreadful career as a student. for those of you who dont know what happened, this is what

she gives out some fill-in-the-blanks passage exercise which is reasonably challenging with 10 questions and 20 marks
i get 16/20 (8/10) through actually thinking through and selecting answers
she asks "who got 8 or more correct?"
i put up my hand along with a few others
she proceeds to compliment everyone who raised their hand
except me

i mean like wth... shouldnt she be glad that her most 'screwed up' student did well? or was she too biased to even care? great teacher we have.

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on a lighter note, daryl came over today (again) and it was more of just a destressing rather than more mugging =)

i think rammstein is FREAKY and daryl singing along and getting all possessed is EVEN FREAKIER... gosh. you should see the guitarists, they just stand still like statues with their hands moving, NOT EVEN THEIR EYES MOVE ARGH

and they have this PSYCHOTIC keyboardist who look like an alien from MIB and also look like ian

oh yes and iTunes visualiser is possibly one of the most mesmerising things ever... i mean like you listen to a song to see the ambience, what with giving a critique whenever we didnt like the colour and oohing and ahhing whenever a nice one comes out

i have rated watching iTunes visualiser as the SECOND most pointless thing in the world to do when you are bored. why second? cause there's always sth more pointless, cliche as it may sound =/

desktop destroyer and halo are probably the best ways to release stress by sadistic pleasure =)

oh that and song 2 by blur, useless and meaningless as the lyrics may be

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i guess i'll just have to do my best and score so that i can shove my good results into xsh's ugly face and prove her wrong. and i'll score well in my o levels just so that i do not let my tuition teacher who wants me to get an A1 down.

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sigh all of a sudden i just love everything, God my church my friends my family, and even my life to some extent.

doh moodswings....

read the url.

Pure Dork 34 % Nerd, 17% Geek, 73% Dork

For The Record: A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia. A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one. A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions. You scored better than half in Dork, earning you the title of: Pure Dork. Like our friends Napoleon Dynamite & co. It's not as though you were some whiz-kid in school. Oh, sure, you probably did okay in some classes, but were probably awful in others. Certainly most people thought you were smarter than you thought yourself to be. And it's not that you have some overriding passion, like computers or Star Trek that sets you apart for the crowd, though you likely share some interest in some of those sorts of things. You just like to be yourself, and want to express yourself for who you are. And, really, there's nothing wrong with that. Being who you are often invites scorn, and so it's a difficult thing in a world that rewards conformity. Be proud of your dorkiness, for often it's just another word for individuality. (I'd vote for you!) Congratulations! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in any of the following: Buffy the Vampire Slayer Professional Wrestling Love & Sexuality America/Politics Thanks Again! -- THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 26% on nerdiness You scored higher than 20% on geekosity You scored higher than 99% on dork points

erm okay.... i totally agree with the description except for the part about passions. but the term 'dork' leaves a lot more to be desired

so if youre shallow and just see the title then screw you

have a nice day

eric is gonna fail his prelims! wowee! i care so much! aaah!

ugly teachers are incredibly distracting :(

ok gotta go read chem byeeee

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

&^%)(#!&^)#@!&)^&#@)#$@&)@$&)@$*^)@*)%^*)@^

BAHRGHVCFIJEHIGV

DOH DOH DOH DOH DOH DOH DOH DOH

ok.

I AM QUITE HYPER NOW BECAUSE... let's see the series of events: (i dont care i'll write in third person HAHHAHAH)

1. eric goes for art lesson
2. eric screws up his art
3. at 5.42 eric receives a message from his dad on his HANDPHONE
4. eric puts the hand phone back into his pocket and LEAVES
5. eric sleeps on the ride home and wakes up when he gets back
6. (ok fine i GIVE UP) I go upstairs and empty my pockets so that i can go and wash up
7. i put my hand into my hanphone pocket
8. its not there
9. AAAAAAAAAAAAARGH@G(FUY#@)(&%)B@#&V)%)
10. hurriedly goes down to the car to check if its there
11. its not
12.(C&$N@)(H%^)(#V@^(@#&F(JEWOGJOIBJ(U$TGU$E(G*QQ#_)R$!_@)R)+TG24Y09%
13. ^$(ghdihoidwtv)#&*hoi359723nf08f792foh289fdi2f923ujvf934u9t56u29c3f82fh238
14. uyd91249d172579175v92739679
15. frantically calls everyone i REMEMBERS to ask for farlow's number via lejon/sean
16. calls ian's HANDPHONE
17. asks for sean's number but realises as i am asking that i ALREADY KNOW IT
18. calls sean
19. sean doesnt pick up >:(
20. calls ian's handphone again
21. its OFF OR ENGAGED (BET YOU RUSHED OFF TO CALL SEAN DIDNT YOU)
22. calls kenny
23. kenny doesnt pick up
24. calls tek
25. tek doesnt pick up
26. CALLS KAIJUN
27. KAIJUN DOESNT PICK UP ***
28. kenny calls back
29. ask for chongwee's number
30. chongwee doesnt pick up
31. asks ian for lejon's number
32. ian sounds offended and says that he doesnt
33. calls kenny to ask for lejon's number
34. get's lejon's number
35. calls lejon
36. LEJON DOESNT HAVE
37. sits on bed stunned and annoyed and pissed and DISSY
38. goes down for dinner
39. comes up after finished
40. occurs to me that it might have dropped into my bag
41. occurs to me that it may be in my pencil case
42. opens pencil case
43. DOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
44. DOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPE
45. (its there btw)
46. ARGHSGFIHSDOGJDWJOH
47. checks messages
***48. sees one from kaijun, it says, "what"

-.-"

spent the day feeling crappy and sian and tired

the day was kicked off with crappy chapel in the uncomfortable boarding school dining hall which is, in my opinion possibly the worst place to house a school function. sigh? i think its stupid how some people just use topics which arent really the main point to argue their point. (read: hating comtemp music today while making a big fuss about hating it cause of the presence of drums.)

core math was one of those morale boosters where i was given a set of problems that i knew how to do. wow-wee

i think its quite stupid how people are still obsessed over doing HOMEWORK at this point of time where the exams are just TWO WEEKS away. like wth, esp lang arts a for that matter, and chinese (duh). i mean, its obviously okay to do the work if you use it to study for the exams and actually learn from it.

but some people just do it cause they've been psychoed into thinking that they must do homework regardless of how pointless it is. when i say pointless i mean that apart from not learning anything, doing these work contributes NOTHING to our final grade as the only thing taken into account in term 4 is our exam marks.

sheesh.

i was also pretty disgusted and annoyed by the way the class dissed eliel when he made an intellectual comment during lang arts a. like wtf... even those people that dont even know him did it. judging someone because you listen to the judgement passed by someone else indeed. not to mention that eliel is one of the more intellectual people in class (go ahead and laugh and scoff and go screw yourselves people who laughed today).

if you look down on someone cause you see him as being 'intellectually-retarded' then you should AT LEAST have the ability to identify and admire the exact opposite of what you look down on

obviously not the case is it?

okay i'm really sorry being so selfish and compromising your love fore my own personal amusement. sorry for being so insensitive, sorry for not appreciating you enough as you deserve, sorry for being a horrible friend to you.

sigh.

gah feeling quite tired now... this sunday was really great

day started off with me going to church early to supposedly fill waterballoons... ended up doing core math (coordinate geometry) with chrisong and becky and lingsiew who was helping to solve some log problem that noone could solve (she actually bothered to REMEMBER it after her exams were over?! whoa..) and chrisong taught me some method of solving coord geom problems which i think is actually quite brilliant despite what daryl says about it not making sense. humph

ok so maybe she's not so useless after all ^^

"dry run" of children's day games was fun if not irritating if not embarrasing as firing a huge gun which shoots out HUGE water jets roughly 8 cm in diameter gives me an overdose of childish glee as i am brought back to p6.. ahhh

nicolas is a retard

apparently my elder sis thinks that daryl is rude cause she didnt hear him say hi when he came into the car. she was sleeping... dope.

hmm after learning SOME concepts for chem i have this 'cant wait for next chem lesson' feeling cause i wanna see whether i can actually UNDERSTAND for once. read: test out newfound knowledge.

hmm spent most of the day in school (duh)

spent most of the school free hours in daryl's house studying chem.. like dope are the concepts really THAT simple?!?!?if they really are then it would just be so DOPEish cause it all seemed so freaking complicated

o.O

last week i'm gonna play dota until the exams are over.. whee

i just learnt that (everlasting) gobstoppers are meant to be sucked and not chewed ):

life for now just seems to be getting more meaningless day by day

just get the freaking exams over and bloody done with can we?

isnt going back to school just so horribly sian, suddenly everything is just even more pointless than it already was in the first place.

lang arts a will be rendered useless for the whole year if we decide to do the question on poems deep and dangerous. and vice versa

i'm screwed for chem, always have been, its so hard to be interested in a subject when you see the point of learning it - just to be able to write on a piece of paper to get another piece of paper in return

dont give a damn about chinese, chinese grade's already screwed, why bother?

math... i know i'm screwed cause of the first semester even though i learnt pretty much okay so far.. oh wait, nvm i'm screwed anyway

hmm ihs, its a decision on whether i want to subject myself to memorising an otherwise interesting stack of notes about venice

sounds stupid but i think school rather much kills your interest for a subject that would otherwise be interesting. oh well. you realise that school isnt so much about gaining knowledge but its just to get a degree to get a job to get money to buy food and drink and shelter

to survive

ok nvm i admit its really flawed logic since whether i gain knowledge is up to me and blahblahblah but i dont see any point cause i dont see any practical use for gaining certain knowledges

*looks at bio and chem and physics on time table and scoffs*

noooo i screwed up the intro for my praise but at least i got the 6/8 beat correct for indecribable AHAHAHAHHAHAH FEAR ME ALL YOU NOOBZZZ ^^/):

bleargh school is gonna start tmr... isnt it so awfully SIAN. i havent done ZERO STUDYING, and not to mention that i cant remember any significant aspects of learning for chem and physics other than stupidstupid stochiometry which i totally suck at and like... RHO

omg i'm so freaking screwed for science

hmm and math too oh well

ghargh wdv is screwed for all subjects

aaaaaah

and yay now my post is sounding stupid because i am running out of things to say other than chris kng was being utterly moronic yesterday ): and that i have 78000 points in yg and that daryl like to sms me when i am sleeping in the car and listening to music and waiting for a reply from a certain someone whom is the manifest of uselessness... so useless that she didnt even come to be useless -.-

yay now my post is sounding timmish/harrisonian

whoopdee freaking doo

after a particularly insane convo with a certain WOMAN... i have learnt a few valuable lessons in 'logic', or lack of it.

Rule 1:

if you like something, and you like something else, those two things are equal

example: i like muffins, and i like carrots, so THEREFORE, muffins = carrots!

Rule 2:

if you say something about someone, that something applies to everybody with the same name

example: chris is blur, and since chriskng has the same name as chrisong, both of them are blur

(not that its false but i'ts just as example ^^)

Rule 3 :

this rule is very difficult to explain in words so just look at the example to understand what i am talking about

example : chriskng views chrisong as being 'slightly blur', i view chriskng (and chrisong) as being 'very blur', so we can work out an equation as follows ->

chriskng = chrisong
chriskng = very blur (my viewpoint)
chrisong = slightly blur (chriskng's viewpoint)
(my viewpoint) very blur = slightly blur (chriskng's viewpoint)
thus chrisong = slightly blur

?!

Rule 4:

good + good = bad!

example: chrisong = good, me = good (go on cough to death you morons -.-)
BUT chrisong + me = ANGST
AND ANGST = BAD
so therefore, GOOD + GOOD = BAD

a less subjective example would be this :
milk = tasty
ketchup = tasty
but milk + ketchup = sick crap

which kinda makes sense but when you think about the good + good = bad thing it doesnt make sense at all :S

What the 'prophet' has to say about her newly made rules:

"i love my logic (:"
"hey i have good logic k!!!"

&%^T#&@)^@&#)^&)

i know that i have no ambition in life... really, i cant think of what i want to be when i grow up, can tthink of what i want to do when i break free of the train track called school

but i have a dream

i dream that i will one day be a worship leader, leading the congregation as one voice to praise and worship and give thanks. the theme will be simply giving thanks and giving Him praise for all he's done in our lives. i will play the most meaningful songs, songs that truly speak of how indescribable, how no words can describe how much we should thank Him.

i will give thanks to God and to glorify God alone and not to anyone else or most of all, myself.

i dream that i will see people moved, i will see people's hands lifted involuntarily to God, i will see people touched by God while worshipping Him. i want to make them realise just how much God has done in their lives, like he has done in mine

i will make it not simply just a time of worship, a routinely task, but i will make it the greatest offering i could possibly give to God in return for all he's done for me. while i am worshipping i will feel as if there is nobody else near me but God. i want to thank God for everything, and everything. even things in the past like whats happening now, thank Him for bringing my family back safely, thank Him for watching over me and my sister as we stayed at home ourselves, thank Him for giving me relatives that care so much to the point of my irritation.

i dream that God will make a way for me in my unambitious life.

i think i'll try to make this dream a reality.

Indescribable

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of Spring
Every creature unique in the Song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable
You placed the stars in the sky and you know them by name.
You are amazing God!
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God!

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gave source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and you know them by name.
You are amazing God!
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and you love me the same
You are amazing God!


sigh! what a meaningful song that is simply an all out praise song to how great God is... we're playing it this sunday among some of my most favourite songs... really cant wait ^^

bah havent found much to blog about for the past few days... newfound freedom has proven to be rather distracting. thanks all who came yesterday and livened up my house ^^

had quite a discussion with my tuition teacher today about 'usefulness' in that sense. she told me about her brother in law who was so uselesss he couldnt do ANY housework and couldnt even tidy up his own room... but he was a lawyer, so she was saying about how she would always look down on him. but with valid reason

i think it shows that grades dont prove a person's ability to contribute constructively to society other than to use that stupid piece of paper (maybe laminated) to get a job, that stupid piece of paper that supposedly is the most accurate measure of your ability

that stupid piece of paper that you spend a full quarter of your life working for, assuming you die of old age

not very happy but not excessively disappointed with my term average of 67, maybe if i didnt do so damn badly in chinese i would have gotten higher

heck i even got 65 for chem, how impossible... and i suppose ihs had quite a big part, considering that i only got a freaking 19/30 on my essay because i didnt put bloody footnotes... what the hell, is that not such a stupid reason to be marked down? oh well suppose its all my fault for thinking that it was stupid and redundant

proves thaty sometimes you jsut have to follow blindly so that you dont die... the irony

the holidays are here and church is coming with holy communion in tow, i'm so happy to be rostered for next sunday and probably next next sunday as well... and i really love the songs that are coming up, which include:

my praise
amazing love
indescribable

whoopee, now i am faced with this predicament of transporting two guitars to church with only one bag

argh

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"a thin line separates life and death" that was the title for my chinese composition which i was actually quite excited to do but got terribly distracted... i think its quite true, you are either alive, or youre dead, theres no way you can be in between. (hears kenny shouting "SLOWWW")

whatever

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