today i just remembered what i have been wanting to blog about for the past few days. moring devotion.

well i couldnt agree more that we should at least help or TRY to help or MAKE AN EFFORT to actually HELP ourselves before asking help from God.

if you dont try how do you know that you need help? if you dont try the only thing you need help in is to have the drive to try and help yourself.

particularly during this exam period, i know of at least ONE person who doesnt study yet simply prays and asks God for help before the exams. somehow always manages to scrape through, how unfair, but nvm it doesnt concern me =/

for me i thank God for giving me the drive to study, to want so desperately to learn more, (for helping me turn chem from a subject i hate to a subject which i have quite a large interest in now (: ).

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today actually started off quite well, (wait it was chinese first period what am i saying?!) then as the day went on things got slightly screwed up as mr azmi almost exploded because i was doing the stack of core math worksheets on inequals during core math class while he was explaining about trransformation and shearing. that and tien en talking back to his face and showing almost as much disrespect as i do to wrg (shift all the letters forward by one)

but unlike wrg, mr azmi doesnt deserve it one bit. sorry sir.

then i proceeded to explode when i got immensely frustrated at not being able to crack a problem and people not SEEMING to give a damn about helping me despite me asking countless times. but oh well i know perfectly well that they probably didnt have a 'heck care' attitude.

getting frustrated while doing math is bad cause you cant think straight

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i am quite troubled at the amount of careless mistakes i make while doing the math problems and one look at the chem paper tells me that i still have quite a lot to catch up on

sigh