after today, i really think i worry too much, too many things that i worried about have turned out to be no cause for worry at all =)

i only hope this holds true for the chinese o's tmr

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i'm not so much worried about doing badly and then having to retake, about further destroying my non-existant self-esteem, about being further looked upon with stereotypical eyes as being stupid.

it's about letting God and my tuition teacher down.

God for lifting all my worries, albeit despite the unneccesarity of mine, never give up a chance to glorify Him.

and i wouldnt be able to face my tuition teacher if i fail or do badly, she came today and yesterday and thursday, to tutor me for a total of 8 hours, in which the hours were distributed in a 3-3-2 proportion.

it would just be so wrong to let down people that trust in you so much to do something. i already let mr azmi down, and never really came round to apologising for it.

'im still quite worried about ur vocab. u gotta remember and revise 2nite ya :)'
'ok sure thanks'
'ok. i really wish you can score in this exam so dat u dun nid to retake...'
'i'll try my best :)'

'i know you will. :)'

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sigh.