i dont know why you bring all of this up again. you once said you were over it. you were once my "friend". we had good times, lots of them. but now you say its all been a fraud.

you cut me real deep

why are you still angry over the band? you once said you were long over it. but then again if you could make me believe that you were truly my friend, how easy would it be to trick me over such a trivial matter?

i'm not here to argue with you, not to insult you, not to blame you, not to say you have no reason to hate me. just here to tell you how feel and maybe soften your suddenly hardened heart.

maybe.

perhaps you blame me over the inactivity of the band? or that you no longer feel like a member of it? or even that as a result of my entry the band has broken apart?

once again i say that i'm not here to rebuke you, but just how proactive have our members been? seems that i'm the only one that actually wants a jamming session. and if you feel that we've left you out of our chapel worship team or any other worship functions then we, or at least i, am sorry. sorry that you think i killed your passion to worship God, sorry that as a result of that you dont want to join us because of my presence.

really.

you were my friend, brother, whatever you want to call it. i poured out my heart to you, and you to me, its just so incredibly hard to believe that all of it was fake.

i know you probably dont care, as you so outrightly proclaim.

but i do.

say what you want, call me a hypocritical christian. but i'll say what i want:

God bless you