bleh through ncc today there was something that really broke my heart... like since the guard of honour training was stupidly scheduled on next sunday

which means i miss church

so like i was complaining

"argh stupid thing... i need to go church"

"why do you want to go to church?"

"what?"

"why do you want to go to church? you shouldnt use it as an excuse because over the past few years i havent observed any change in you."

*shatters*

i guess i was pretty insulted by being called a hypocrite but like... i know i have been pretty much a disgrace to christians over sec one and sec two, so all of you hate me and stuff

sigh

i really have to work on projecting a better image of Christ

=/