Mood: Sick and tired of this world...
Music: On the way down by Ryan Cabrera

haiz sunday... church

church worship was good today i admit, even though the songs werent really to my liking... youth group was kinda dumb, only 6 pple came... bleh

came home, caught up on all the tv i missed during the week... mom screaming that i watch to much tv... like bloody hell i never watch during the whole week lah, even without the cruise

went to fish and co. for dinner, nice food... celebrate dad coming back from usa

went to buy guitar string cause the screwed up thing broke

mom lecture me about not using the money she gives me to buy food to put in my savings..

i think there is something seriously screwed up about the way my family works, i think it is too restrictive, and all these restrictions put together make me discontent and full of angst, like not being able to watch relity tv cause its too late... forcing me to watch it on weekends, all at one go, causing my mom to scold me for excessive tv screening, how retarded. and also there is their refusal to get me stuff that i want, i know it may seem to be a spoilt brat's remark, but i have been longing and longing for an electric guitar, for a year now... and its not a "mindless" thing like an xbox like my parents call it... its a musical instrument used to relieve emotions... maybe if they just freaking LOOKED AT IT THIS WAY they might consider getting me one... stupid remarks about how i wont appreciate it if they give it to me the moment i asked... how long have i been asking? you wont take care of it... havent i taken good care of azmi's guitar? its simply ridiculous to ask me to save up for it... 500 bucks... i'm about a quarter there... ands half the money was from cny, go figure how long it'll take me...

every little thing i dislike about this family could be changed, just that my parents dont choose to do that, they think its a learning experience... i vow that if i ever have kids, i'd understand them the best i can and let them go...

im such a sad case...