Here Without You...

2005-11-14T20:59:00.000+08:00

zzz shifted to stereotypicallystupid.blogspot.com, dont ask me why

as if you care..

2005-11-07T18:37:00.000+08:00

first day of work today, getting $20/day for 10 days (whatever sean). that would equate to $200 for benefit of the mathematically challenged.

well, in the form it states that we are doing:
-create and update products catalog
-key-in data entry
-final product packaging

in real life we are:
-packing 400 bundles of wires into packets (pun NOT intended) and separating them into boxes of 200 pcs each
-arranging a thick stack of reciepts according to their serial numbers
-disassembling extension units and reassembling them in order to make sure that the six metre wire goes into the 4 socket extension and the three metre wire goes into the 3 socket extension

of course the three metre wire was in the 4 socket extension and the six metre wire was in the 3 socket extension at first

80 units disassembled and reassembled, two pairs of screwdriver worn hands

and of course 'we' refers to me and jtek. (ian dont get jealous!)

while doing the sockets, i wondered whether this was what it was like to be at the bottom rungs of the social ladder, manual labour. perhaps even lower than students.. hmm but oh well at least i get 20 bucks a day for it

2005-11-01T19:02:00.000+08:00

-start test-

oooooh now i can access blogger, cool

-end of a useless post-

2005-10-30T18:32:00.000+08:00

after today, i really think i worry too much, too many things that i worried about have turned out to be no cause for worry at all =)

i only hope this holds true for the chinese o's tmr

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i'm not so much worried about doing badly and then having to retake, about further destroying my non-existant self-esteem, about being further looked upon with stereotypical eyes as being stupid.

it's about letting God and my tuition teacher down.

God for lifting all my worries, albeit despite the unneccesarity of mine, never give up a chance to glorify Him.

and i wouldnt be able to face my tuition teacher if i fail or do badly, she came today and yesterday and thursday, to tutor me for a total of 8 hours, in which the hours were distributed in a 3-3-2 proportion.

it would just be so wrong to let down people that trust in you so much to do something. i already let mr azmi down, and never really came round to apologising for it.

'im still quite worried about ur vocab. u gotta remember and revise 2nite ya :)'
'ok sure thanks'
'ok. i really wish you can score in this exam so dat u dun nid to retake...'
'i'll try my best :)'

'i know you will. :)'

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sigh.

2005-10-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

My blog is worth $5,645.40.
How much is your blog worth?

2005-10-28T19:30:00.000+08:00

I Will Carry You - Clay Aiken

Yeah I know it hurts, Yeah I know you're scared walking down the road that leads to who knows where. Don't you hang your
head don't you give up yet when courage starts to disappear I will be right here.

[Chorus:]

When your world breaks down and the voices tell you turn around. When your dreams give out I will carry you, carry you.
When the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes. When you're falling behind, I will carry you.

Everybody cries, Everybody bleeds, No one ever said that lifes an easy thing. Thats the beauty of it, when you lose your
way, close your eyes and go to sleep and wake up to another day.

[Chorus]

You should know now that you're not alone. Take my heart and we will find, you will find, your way home.

When your dreams give out I will carry you, carry you. When the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes.
When you're falling behind, I will carry you, carry you, I will carry you, carry you, I will carry you, carry you, I will
carry you.

Now i just need someone to carry me.

2005-10-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

since i am feeling insecure i shall be an unoriginal moron and copy daryl who coopied ian and try to ask iTunes for answers

1. Is life dumb?
Ordinary - Train

i'll take that as a yes then
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2. How many people went deaf after the performances today?
1985 - Bowling for Soup

SHOCKING BUT TRUE.
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3. Is (insert name) the biggest bitch ever to have existed?
Enough - Jeremy Camp

I'LL TAKE THAT AS A YES THEN
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4. Is LWMC useless?
We Are - Ana Johnsson

I SO FREAKING KNEW IT.
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5. What did i DO?!?!??!
Here I Am - Planetshakers

.....so my existence is wrong huh
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6. What is wrong with Chris?
Moment of Glory - Sonicflood

?!?!?!??!?!?!??!
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7. What is wrong with me
Knocking on Heaven's Door - Avalon

(see above comment)
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8. iTunes oh iTunes... will i ever get married?!
On the Wings of Love - Westlife

o.O what that means i do not know
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9. Why does chongwee hate me so much no matter how much i try?
Bring Me to Life - Evanescence

so i should stop trying huh...
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10. Why does Chris hate me?
That thing you do - The Wonders

WTF
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11. Is yg5 useless?
All Day - Hillsong

why does everything fit so perfectly?!?!
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12. Is pastor kenneth the sole guardian of usefulness in LWMC?
Famous One - Chris Tomlin

itunes displays tremendous wisdom again.
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13. Is this question useless?
Every Little Thing You Do - Westlife

....NOOOO
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14. Will i get an A for chinese o levels?
This is How we Overcome - Hillsong

okay i'll keep my hopes up then
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15. (oh iTunes... will i ever have sex?)
In Not Of - Avalon

yesyes iTunes be evil just when i trusted in you....

2005-10-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

ahem, in view of the coming o levels which i need to do well in, but probably wont anyway, i shall cease blogging for a while (haha now everyone shall die of irony!) unless i feel an urge to.

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its intolerable how some teachers can be so insufferably hypocritical. teachers whose lives revolve around restricting speech and then talking about what makes up life. teachers who have nothing better to do than to hate the whole world and make the whole world hate them. teachers which have nothing to lost in doing so.

hypocrites.

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mymy according to daryl some sec one guy got screwed for flaming teachers, hah i was wondering whether it was this guy -> http://www.xanga.com/simb_o (oh my i do hope i dont get him into trouble)

2005-10-22T22:11:00.000+08:00

aaaahhhhhh eventful day! much to blog about but i am quite tired.

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chinese tuition! ok i really REALLY need to do well in my chinese o's if not my tuition teacher will be very disappointed... so touching arhrghgsh.

hmm it was actually quite serious, but since i just got back from the barbecue, am still pretty hyped up.

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then there was the barbecue itself. but before that there was supposed to be cycling. well there was, but only to go and look for largely incompetent people who walked the wrong way, couldnt find the carpark outside the place which they were in while railing about a yellow and black crane, thought that the whole of east coast park revolved around macdonalds, and somehow managed to walk 2^86024760 km in the wrong direction.

so that was cycling i guess, kenny is an utter road hazard, stay away from him. oh and we encountered a HORDE of BB people walking on the cycling track. -.-" had to cleave our way through them, sadly not in a physical sense.

next big event was the lighting of the fire, what with people getting all their hands, arms, and faces black and stupid ian walking around the pit making snide comments and basically being a useless BUM.

example: "fire is quite cool right?" -.-

the actuall cooking was quite chaotic, with everyone bustling around with the occasional outburst of laughter which is an instant cause of curiosity. i shall attempt to state some things that happened which i can remember

-people rushing for the marshmallows when the fire burns through the grill.
-ali and his friend making an 'artistic' birthday present for their friend.
-chrisong and becky comparing their tongs.
-andrew being completely useless and slappable
-excessive amount of butter spread on the sausages by kenny

-becky leaving and then coming back, with which i responded with "we almost missed you, but we got distracted" how unoriginal, but anyway this resulted in me being chased around for fear of being whacked, then the breaking of becky's slipper, which gave even MORE reason to be whacked. dope.

-me eating a marshmallow that was half carbon
-chrisong saying that she didnt like green tea
-the observing of two boys building a trench on the beach
-chrisong saying that she wanted green tea to try cause she was desperate for a drink.
-dean informing ling siew that prawns are to be eaten without the shells on

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post barbecue games were fun, with the immensely pointless and simple 'number game' being the first to be played. lucky i never guessed the correct number, cause the penalty was to eat a piece of beef/chicken/otah/squid/corn smeared with an EXCESSIVE amount of butter in a 2:1 ratio, courtesy of me and chrisong, speaking of which was the first person to actually try to sabo other people rather than just play safe.

polar bear! what more can be said except that ian and kenny are probably the most unlikely 'hungry-mungry-bungry-lungry' polar bears due to ian being a moron during the sleep periods, and kenny constantly arrowing noone but becky, whom he has developed a mutual hatred with.

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aaah tired, but would give much to do it all over again

2005-10-21T20:07:00.000+08:00

(semi) meaningless post-exam school day again. then there is the manifesto.

i personally feel that the colloquium (is that how its spelt?) is a very good idea, but only if the audience is actually interested and actually have the CAPABILITY to understand what the heck is going on.

i might be being stereotypical and judgemental (and a hypocrite), but from what i observed today, i think that the school was under the false impression that IB students are ALL capable of critical thinking, which is also evident is the introduction of POD to IB students ONLY. what with clapping and cheering at irrelevant comments and actions?! got severely pissed off, then i swore really loudly once my threshold broke, sorry to anyone who was unfortunate enough to hear it.

of course above the ruckus nobody heard it but it took me about 2 seconds to regret it.

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i think exasperation has two types, acceptable and too far. of course now ian and daryl are thinking 'ohoho! eric is very pissed about today!'. actually i'm not, i just got inspired by it.

well what i would define as 'too far' would be unnecessary (more that usual) attemps to simply make every action a chore for the person. example: asking someone to pass you something. in a 'too far' scenario, what would usually happen would be that the exaspeRATOR will say no and refuse and do everything possible to prevent that person from getting the object once the person realises that it was a mistake to ask the exasperator to pass him/her the object in the first place

this is of course rounded off with a feeble attempt at final exasperation in the form of "next time if you want it, please ask"

oh well.

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i think its really stupid how people complain about you being grumpy when they are the freaking people that caused the damn grumpiness in the first place.

2005-10-20T20:18:00.000+08:00

hmm how does one start blogging knowing that certain *ahem* DEMANDS are expected from it. stupid ian and daryl.

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spent today feeling tired and pissy and vulgar at that. something just feels really unfulfilling that you are waking up so damn early to go to school with nothing useful waiting in store.

and that your time is wasted over meaningless things like chinese language competition. hm but its not that i do meaningful stuff at home either, but i can at least sleep?

oh no this is when i realise that life after exams is meaningless other than the times spent with people you love, which happens on sunday and during school.

BUT THEN WHY IS GOING TO SCHOOL MEANINGLESS

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in case you people havent realised, in this period of time i am particularly confused over everything. yes that means that i dont know why i am confused. make sense? hope it does.

just because i am unable to sound 'intellectual', just because i am unable to be 'random', just because i am unable to be entertaining is ANY FREAKING WAY..... gah whatever i dont give a fk anymore.

2005-10-19T23:33:00.000+08:00

yay results are out! the apocalypse is OVER AND DONE WITH AHAHAHA.

good. now just to look forward to next year in this freaking stupid cycle that i kinda realised we must enjoy as much as possible

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music team practice was fun, except that now i have been delegated to play some sort of solo part o.o i shall DIE.

becky is amusing and useless at the same time i must say, but then again so are most useless people...

rawrrawr eric has nothing to say except that he is currently freaking out over the scary music in 'murder of sleeping town'

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which is another wc3 mod btw, cheers

2005-10-18T16:28:00.000+08:00

sigh.... acs was very tricksy today... everyone thought that our results were going to be released... but they didnt! tricksy acs... owe us pushups :P

then we had a briefing by mr alistair chew... haha it was so funny... he ended his briefing very dramatically.... then everyone just went off and didnt care what mdm yvonne lim had to say... sigh why are people like that... i know that everyone doesnt like her just because she seems to nag for no reason and never smiles... and she also came into our class to scold us for no reason... but we should also look at ourselves... if we had cleaned up the class properly she wouldnt have needed to complain about the dirtiness right? maybe we should all just give her a chance... and maybe try to look at the good in her...

the day went on with us supposedly doing our manifesto... haha such a cool name... anyway i just felt so sian... so i didnt do anything about it... then ms phuan got upset when we didnt seem to pay attention when tim was presenting... i feel so sorry for sleeping through the whole thing.... maybe tim actually had something important to say.....

then the day ended with the 'performance' which everyone thought was very lousy... i mean they have good intentions..... cant everyone just see that and not be so critical of them? :(

*here i break out of timmish blogging style*

hmm i fully intend to forget the whole incident this morning, and actually managed to do so about halfway into the day. i concede the giggling over the memory of mr alvin tan rubbing the piece of vegetable in my face on saturday. but i dont think i was fully wrong in hitting kaijun to stop him from swaying and purposefully bumping into me and the person on the other side just because he was bored during prayer.

oh well, let bygones be bygones. (oh my am i being hypocritical?)

however i fail to understand how hitting someone to stop him disturbing during prayer and giggling during the pledge and national anthem is an act of 'religious hypocrisy'. was kinda hurt by that but i suppose he had a good enough explanation :S

rawr results tmr, i shall fail c math, amath, physics, chem, and probably chinese

sigh

(mymy am i being a moron by imitating other people's blogging styles for my own entertainment? =/)

2005-10-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

this blog shall remain inactive until eric gets bored of playing BATTLESHIPS/worm war/vampire tag/missile war/resident evil/x hero siege/escape from gay space/shroom world/footmen frenzy.... and maybe dota

bah just when eric gets bored of playing warcraft 3 mods

2005-10-11T20:10:00.000+08:00

hello ya guys...eric LEE here...

176th time here...

coolness man..

this thing is way too cool...haha...anyways...i like it...

funky funky...hopefully when saturday comes we can all get to know each
other better..yeah...woohoo...hahah...

finally got time to check KoL...

and did ya guys see the rainbow today...so nice man..ok...

whatever eric..hahaha...
talking rubbish..

having random thoughts...

anyway dean/ling want a youth group barbecue...haha..yeah cool..

i dun mind helping to cook except that i suck..haha..so anyway

gotta go...tata..

(w00t ^^)

2005-10-09T15:06:00.000+08:00

oh SIGH! another weekend come and gone. (read: i define the end of the weekend after church is over)

still quite an eventful day so it shall be a long post

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firstly, after a certain unreasonable and overreacting incident which i shant rant about, i got me wondering : do teachers or (and especially) vice principals have authority over their students OUTSIDE SCHOOL?! i mean, so what? just because i belong to the oh-so-illustrious acs, DOESNT MEAN that i have to submit to authority outside school?

like, when i graduate i will come back and slap all the teachers that i hate if they are still around.

ah well, i hate these kind of people who think that they have authority ALL THE TIME.

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after yg, which was rather entertaining and amusing. (yes even for me) its so GOOD! all the hyped up energy stored up through the whole stupid exam week! RELEASED! AHAHAHA.

i think chrisong and becky are psychotic people (paedophiles) who are crazy over little boys and claim that they are their new BOYFRIENDS and that they are so HAWT

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (no daryl i am not jealous -.-)

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mymy i think its so stupid how my younger sis screwed up her own birthday by being a petty twit during lunch

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OH NO CHRIS KNG'S GUITAR BROKE!!! AAAAARGHH!!! I TOLD YOU THE SUN WAS STUPID AND DUMB AND NOW YOU REALISE BUT NOOOOOOO.

this is really one of those "I TOLD YOU SO!!" moments -.-

WHY WONT PEOPLE FREAKING LISTEN?!

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AND OH MY FREAKING GOSH!!!!!!! WHAT ON EARTH!!!!! DARYL!!!!! YOU PSYCHO!!! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!!! ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME SCREAM??!?!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH!!!!

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i fear the 15th of october's evening

2005-10-08T20:38:00.000+08:00

AAARGH MY TERRAPIN PISSED ON ME ITS SO GROSS EWWWW

i mean like, okay i took it out of its tank and out of the water to crawl around on my desk to teach it a lesson for bullying my other turtle

so i pick it up then talk to it and say that its a BAD BAD TURTLE

then it proceeds to PISS ON ME

AAARGH I FEEL SO WRONGED!! YOU DONT PISS ON YOUR MOM WHEN SHE SCOLDS YOU RIGHT?!

sheesh =/

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wow 2/3 of saturday and hence 1/3 of my week end is gone as a result of tuition ending at 4

bleargh and my mum is pissy because i was playing instead of studyng for o levels

sheesh >:(

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maybe i should piss on her

i have taken a greater liking to smsing as mr x is so entertaining!

w00t

2005-10-07T19:01:00.000+08:00

yay i shall fail physics, if i dont then.. erm, i will pas everything else

c math paper wasnt THAT hard, but i will lose at least 20 marks for paper 2 because i had to redraw the freaking graph THREE BLOODY TIMES and didnt read the part about "C being a point on the perpendicular bisector of AB"

screw the stupid people who set the exam paper, retards

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on a lighter note i am happy to say that i can SLACK for the rest of the papers, now before mr azmi gets worked up over me saying that adv math is slack let me remind him that i will have two whole free days to study for it before it finally finishes on thursday with great thanks to the screwed up timetabling committee

somehow chinese is just a hinderance in the way, a pest that you know you should be worrying about but quite frankly, dont give a crap about

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seoul garden is 1337

2005-10-05T15:59:00.000+08:00

what a nice feeling it is to know that you have gotten through your exams and have actually done them well

sadly chem kinda hindered that feeling as i estimate that i shall lose at least 40% minus minus

rawr rainy mornings are good

i hope noone gives a shit about physics *glares at tim* cause we really have learned ZERO, NADA, SQUAT... zilch -.-

i estimate that at least half the class will fail hooray

2005-10-04T13:16:00.000+08:00

seeing a rainbow on your way to school and having it follow you all the way has this incredible way of bringing you this thing called hope. that plus listening to with every breath also makes you feel rather blessed

hmmm sorry sean for yelling and swearing at you in the morning

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both ihs and lang arts papers were breeze, dont know why so many people didnt get the point of the passage... or maybe mine was wrong but thats just my interpretation

argh chemmy chem looms..
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i hope i see a rainbow tmr on my way to school

2005-10-02T19:50:00.000+08:00

ahh church, too bad i seem to have forgotten how refreshing it was...

my verse for the exams was

Psalms 7:6

Arise, O LORD, in your anger;
rise up against the rage of my enemies.
Awake, my God; decree justice.

doh hope it wasnt too harsh =/

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hmm i suppose i disapprove of people putting studying for exams above coming to church or even youth group. isnt asking help from God more helpful and useful than trying to help yourself? and besides, its about priorities too. alastair raised an excellent point during yg that exam period is quite a hazardous period in the christian walk as it takes our focus off God and puts it unto the end of the exams. then after the exams end the focus is shifted to play...

of course for people who dont work and just pray this is not the case but thats not the point

no kenny i'm not talking about you so dont get all titchy touchy ahah

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daryl's house's kitchen is quite a conducive environment to study in. but then i reallise that prolonged periods of study without breaks will make one feel extremely temperamental and more prone to getting annoyed and frustrated

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my my i do hope i dont get exasperated beyond tolerance during port dickson cause that would be bad

2005-10-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

sigh why do i always feel so inspired after chinese tuition then always lose the interest to blog about it once its over and i just flomp on my bed and relax?

maybe its because my tuition teacher is one of the rare few teachers who have a genuine desire to teach and help people, rather than just the egoistic people who become teachers just to exercise control over other people. maybe its cause she's an intellectual that thinks about world issues and politics.

maybe its because she said matter-of-factly that mdm wrg was a complete failure :D :D :D

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ahh church tmr, i cant wait to have 4 hours (minus minus) of stress free time where i can just relax and not have a care in the world

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maybe if i dont panic during the exams i shall pass

2005-09-30T22:28:00.000+08:00

i think its quite intolerable how some teachers just be insufferable twits for the sake of being insufferable twits

today was a prime example as we were made to stand in a single file so that everyone gets to soak up the sun. or maybe it was some other stupid reason like so that we could be observed at one glance. made no sense at all and was totally uncalled for.

i dont think its right that some teachers just assume control of a class if the cts or pcts are not around, its not their business

after tolerating the sun we went back to class. and were promptly interrupted again by the same unreasonable person. and for what? just to tell us how bad our "housekeeping" is, then left. like WHAT ON EARTH?! do these people really have no life or what?! o.O surely there must be better, more useful and more LIKEABLE things to do as a hobby?!

then during honours day i get my chem textbook taken away because i was reading it during the awards presentation. by the same person of course. i think that makes zero sense, by the way. what could possibly be contructive about watching a bunch of award receipients which you dont know recieve awards? you dont know who they are, you dont know what they did to deserve it, so why the recognition?

in case you award receipients were wondering i only started reading chem after all you guys had received, which finished in like the first ten minutes.

so i try to do something constructive by actually revising for the coming exam for a subject that i am weak in, and here is someone stopping me from doing it and insisting that i focus on a pointless and useless thing. wheres the logic in that? not to mention that there is a certain element of hypocrisy involved here.

see, a teacher wants me to pay attention, so obviously he/she thinks that paying attention is the right thing to do and everyone should be doing it

but what? this particular teacher does NOT pay attention, instead he/she decides to busy him/herself with looking out for people who DONT pay attention, and in the process not paying attention him/herself

argh the irony

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sigh i think i shall do badly again and be crowned king of the losers

2005-09-29T15:58:00.000+08:00

today i just remembered what i have been wanting to blog about for the past few days. moring devotion.

well i couldnt agree more that we should at least help or TRY to help or MAKE AN EFFORT to actually HELP ourselves before asking help from God.

if you dont try how do you know that you need help? if you dont try the only thing you need help in is to have the drive to try and help yourself.

particularly during this exam period, i know of at least ONE person who doesnt study yet simply prays and asks God for help before the exams. somehow always manages to scrape through, how unfair, but nvm it doesnt concern me =/

for me i thank God for giving me the drive to study, to want so desperately to learn more, (for helping me turn chem from a subject i hate to a subject which i have quite a large interest in now (: ).

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today actually started off quite well, (wait it was chinese first period what am i saying?!) then as the day went on things got slightly screwed up as mr azmi almost exploded because i was doing the stack of core math worksheets on inequals during core math class while he was explaining about trransformation and shearing. that and tien en talking back to his face and showing almost as much disrespect as i do to wrg (shift all the letters forward by one)

but unlike wrg, mr azmi doesnt deserve it one bit. sorry sir.

then i proceeded to explode when i got immensely frustrated at not being able to crack a problem and people not SEEMING to give a damn about helping me despite me asking countless times. but oh well i know perfectly well that they probably didnt have a 'heck care' attitude.

getting frustrated while doing math is bad cause you cant think straight

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i am quite troubled at the amount of careless mistakes i make while doing the math problems and one look at the chem paper tells me that i still have quite a lot to catch up on

sigh

2005-09-27T17:10:00.000+08:00

o.o scary straits times... seems that now WRG would have every freaking right to sue me for posting about how lousy and screwed up she is at teaching and being a person overall

oh well i suppose ranting that the law is against free speech shall be pointless as this is one of those cases where one must just mindlessly submit himself to authority without question.

well what i feel is that all teachers deserve SOME level of respect, but just how much they are given is ultimately decided by the students. about this whole "cannot teach" thing, i think that its only terribly wrong and uncalled for if that person has no proof or evidence that that particular teacher cant, in that sense. for me, i conducted an experiment by using ian's zuoye.

i copied down the exact same answers, to see whether who she marks makes a difference in how much she grades them

turns out i got one question wrong while ian got the exact same question right. WITH THE EXACT SAME ANSWER.

(not to mention that ian's answer was too stupid to be marked correct in the first place)

hence i can conclude that wrg cannot teach, but i am not allowed to express myself even though i have 'proof'. gah dammit

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nooo missing chem on thursday, argh i really need it and want it. just have to go find pexx i guess

wasting valuable time giong through crap o level paper =/

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feeling slightly better though still sneezing out voluminous amounts of mucus and snot.

darn i feel as if im so far behind on revision, i'm only kinda done with chem and ihs, stil have ALL OF math left....aaaaaaaaaaah

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oh no i think i'm degenerating into shallow posts that just log about the days events ):

2005-09-26T20:13:00.000+08:00

oh no. started the day feeling depressed and MOODY cause of.. ermerm.. forgot heh ^^"
then i proceeded to sneeze out two gallons of mucus over the span of two hours?
i bet it was the sun from yesteday.... ooh how hot it was...
aaaah i might have dengue!!!! ooooooooh and somehow i'm not scared or freaking out or wdvwdv

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a slurpee is probably one of the best things in the world to have while walking under the scorching sun with no shade.

argh i hate the sun its so.... HOT and BRIGHT and HOT and HAPPY (and hot and hot and hot) :(

aha now theres another reason to hate my life cause i live in singapore..

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argh i havent done ANY revision today

-edit-

ian (no the other ian) has developed an eternal hatred for quotation marks ----> " " "

dope

-end edit-

2005-09-25T15:51:00.000+08:00

ahhhh sunday... best day of the week

did some unproductive studying with chris and becky, but at least i managed to memorise the mole chart! hah.

studying in a group doesnt neccesarily mean interacting! well for me at least, the other person is just there for presence to keep me focused, haha.

pastor edmund koh is VERY boring, but maybe if i tried listening then i might find that he's actually saying something useful no? :(

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children's day celebrations! i think MOST of the sec ones are extremely screwed up and bitchy and 'pai-kiah' (oh fine maybe just two :P). what with screwing around with the water balloons are being extremely bratty and childish.

ho hum i'f i'm being unaware please let me know instead of calling me obtuse and hypocritical and what not behind my back argh. all you un-blunt people.....

having most of the kids beg me to blast them was quite odd.

oh no due to unforseen circumstances my water 'bazooker' ran out of water while i was trying to gun down the kiddies... argh. bad next time we shall just get a hose =/

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ms rambutan tree was being quite odd and pmsy towards me today. humph

................

argh i gotta studyyy, spent one whole week on chemmy chem and not really finished, still left core math and adv math and FIZZIKSSS

bleh. the end of yet another harrisonian post

2005-09-23T20:39:00.000+08:00

hmm sorry i shall have to start off today's post on a dull note.

i think mdm xsh is possibly the most biased, most utterly prejudiced teacher i have had the misfortune to come across so far in my dreadful career as a student. for those of you who dont know what happened, this is what

she gives out some fill-in-the-blanks passage exercise which is reasonably challenging with 10 questions and 20 marks
i get 16/20 (8/10) through actually thinking through and selecting answers
she asks "who got 8 or more correct?"
i put up my hand along with a few others
she proceeds to compliment everyone who raised their hand
except me

i mean like wth... shouldnt she be glad that her most 'screwed up' student did well? or was she too biased to even care? great teacher we have.

...............

on a lighter note, daryl came over today (again) and it was more of just a destressing rather than more mugging =)

i think rammstein is FREAKY and daryl singing along and getting all possessed is EVEN FREAKIER... gosh. you should see the guitarists, they just stand still like statues with their hands moving, NOT EVEN THEIR EYES MOVE ARGH

and they have this PSYCHOTIC keyboardist who look like an alien from MIB and also look like ian

oh yes and iTunes visualiser is possibly one of the most mesmerising things ever... i mean like you listen to a song to see the ambience, what with giving a critique whenever we didnt like the colour and oohing and ahhing whenever a nice one comes out

i have rated watching iTunes visualiser as the SECOND most pointless thing in the world to do when you are bored. why second? cause there's always sth more pointless, cliche as it may sound =/

desktop destroyer and halo are probably the best ways to release stress by sadistic pleasure =)

oh that and song 2 by blur, useless and meaningless as the lyrics may be

...............

i guess i'll just have to do my best and score so that i can shove my good results into xsh's ugly face and prove her wrong. and i'll score well in my o levels just so that i do not let my tuition teacher who wants me to get an A1 down.

................

sigh all of a sudden i just love everything, God my church my friends my family, and even my life to some extent.

doh moodswings....

2005-09-23T19:47:00.000+08:00

read the url.

2005-09-22T19:25:00.000+08:00

Pure Dork
34 % Nerd, 17% Geek, 73% Dork

For The Record:

A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.
A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.
A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.
You scored better than half in Dork, earning you the title of: Pure Dork. Like our friends Napoleon Dynamite & co.

It's not as though you were some whiz-kid in school. Oh, sure, you probably did okay in some classes, but were probably awful in others. Certainly most people thought you were smarter than you thought yourself to be. And it's not that you have some overriding passion, like computers or Star Trek that sets you apart for the crowd, though you likely share some interest in some of those sorts of things. You just like to be yourself, and want to express yourself for who you are.

And, really, there's nothing wrong with that. Being who you are often invites scorn, and so it's a difficult thing in a world that rewards conformity. Be proud of your dorkiness, for often it's just another word for individuality. (I'd vote for you!)

Congratulations!

Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in any of the following:

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Professional Wrestling

Love & Sexuality

America/Politics

Thanks Again! -- THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 26% on nerdiness
You scored higher than 20% on geekosity
You scored higher than 99% on dork points

erm okay.... i totally agree with the description except for the part about passions. but the term 'dork' leaves a lot more to be desired

so if youre shallow and just see the title then screw you

have a nice day

2005-09-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

eric is gonna fail his prelims! wowee! i care so much! aaah!

ugly teachers are incredibly distracting :(

ok gotta go read chem byeeee

2005-09-20T19:08:00.000+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

&^%)(#!&amp;^)#@!&)^&#@)#$@&)@$&)@$*^)@*)%^*)@^

BAHRGHVCFIJEHIGV

DOH DOH DOH DOH DOH DOH DOH DOH

ok.

I AM QUITE HYPER NOW BECAUSE... let's see the series of events: (i dont care i'll write in third person HAHHAHAH)

1. eric goes for art lesson
2. eric screws up his art
3. at 5.42 eric receives a message from his dad on his HANDPHONE
4. eric puts the hand phone back into his pocket and LEAVES
5. eric sleeps on the ride home and wakes up when he gets back
6. (ok fine i GIVE UP) I go upstairs and empty my pockets so that i can go and wash up
7. i put my hand into my hanphone pocket
8. its not there
9. AAAAAAAAAAAAARGH@G(FUY#@)(&%)B@#&V)%)
10. hurriedly goes down to the car to check if its there
11. its not
12.(C&$N@)(H%^)(#V@^(@#&F(JEWOGJOIBJ(U$TGU$E(G*QQ#_)R$!_@)R)+TG24Y09%
13. ^$(ghdihoidwtv)#&*hoi359723nf08f792foh289fdi2f923ujvf934u9t56u29c3f82fh238
14. uyd91249d172579175v92739679
15. frantically calls everyone i REMEMBERS to ask for farlow's number via lejon/sean
16. calls ian's HANDPHONE
17. asks for sean's number but realises as i am asking that i ALREADY KNOW IT
18. calls sean
19. sean doesnt pick up >:(
20. calls ian's handphone again
21. its OFF OR ENGAGED (BET YOU RUSHED OFF TO CALL SEAN DIDNT YOU)
22. calls kenny
23. kenny doesnt pick up
24. calls tek
25. tek doesnt pick up
26. CALLS KAIJUN
27. KAIJUN DOESNT PICK UP ***
28. kenny calls back
29. ask for chongwee's number
30. chongwee doesnt pick up
31. asks ian for lejon's number
32. ian sounds offended and says that he doesnt
33. calls kenny to ask for lejon's number
34. get's lejon's number
35. calls lejon
36. LEJON DOESNT HAVE
37. sits on bed stunned and annoyed and pissed and DISSY
38. goes down for dinner
39. comes up after finished
40. occurs to me that it might have dropped into my bag
41. occurs to me that it may be in my pencil case
42. opens pencil case
43. DOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
44. DOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPE
45. (its there btw)
46. ARGHSGFIHSDOGJDWJOH
47. checks messages
***48. sees one from kaijun, it says, "what"

-.-"

2005-09-19T18:28:00.000+08:00

spent the day feeling crappy and sian and tired

the day was kicked off with crappy chapel in the uncomfortable boarding school dining hall which is, in my opinion possibly the worst place to house a school function. sigh? i think its stupid how some people just use topics which arent really the main point to argue their point. (read: hating comtemp music today while making a big fuss about hating it cause of the presence of drums.)

core math was one of those morale boosters where i was given a set of problems that i knew how to do. wow-wee

i think its quite stupid how people are still obsessed over doing HOMEWORK at this point of time where the exams are just TWO WEEKS away. like wth, esp lang arts a for that matter, and chinese (duh). i mean, its obviously okay to do the work if you use it to study for the exams and actually learn from it.

but some people just do it cause they've been psychoed into thinking that they must do homework regardless of how pointless it is. when i say pointless i mean that apart from not learning anything, doing these work contributes NOTHING to our final grade as the only thing taken into account in term 4 is our exam marks.

sheesh.

i was also pretty disgusted and annoyed by the way the class dissed eliel when he made an intellectual comment during lang arts a. like wtf... even those people that dont even know him did it. judging someone because you listen to the judgement passed by someone else indeed. not to mention that eliel is one of the more intellectual people in class (go ahead and laugh and scoff and go screw yourselves people who laughed today).

if you look down on someone cause you see him as being 'intellectually-retarded' then you should AT LEAST have the ability to identify and admire the exact opposite of what you look down on

obviously not the case is it?

okay i'm really sorry being so selfish and compromising your love fore my own personal amusement. sorry for being so insensitive, sorry for not appreciating you enough as you deserve, sorry for being a horrible friend to you.

sigh.

2005-09-18T20:43:00.000+08:00

gah feeling quite tired now... this sunday was really great

day started off with me going to church early to supposedly fill waterballoons... ended up doing core math (coordinate geometry) with chrisong and becky and lingsiew who was helping to solve some log problem that noone could solve (she actually bothered to REMEMBER it after her exams were over?! whoa..) and chrisong taught me some method of solving coord geom problems which i think is actually quite brilliant despite what daryl says about it not making sense. humph

ok so maybe she's not so useless after all ^^

"dry run" of children's day games was fun if not irritating if not embarrasing as firing a huge gun which shoots out HUGE water jets roughly 8 cm in diameter gives me an overdose of childish glee as i am brought back to p6.. ahhh

nicolas is a retard

apparently my elder sis thinks that daryl is rude cause she didnt hear him say hi when he came into the car. she was sleeping... dope.

hmm after learning SOME concepts for chem i have this 'cant wait for next chem lesson' feeling cause i wanna see whether i can actually UNDERSTAND for once. read: test out newfound knowledge.

2005-09-15T20:32:00.000+08:00

hmm spent most of the day in school (duh)

spent most of the school free hours in daryl's house studying chem.. like dope are the concepts really THAT simple?!?!?if they really are then it would just be so DOPEish cause it all seemed so freaking complicated

o.O

last week i'm gonna play dota until the exams are over.. whee

i just learnt that (everlasting) gobstoppers are meant to be sucked and not chewed ):

2005-09-14T21:04:00.000+08:00

life for now just seems to be getting more meaningless day by day

just get the freaking exams over and bloody done with can we?

2005-09-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

isnt going back to school just so horribly sian, suddenly everything is just even more pointless than it already was in the first place.

lang arts a will be rendered useless for the whole year if we decide to do the question on poems deep and dangerous. and vice versa

i'm screwed for chem, always have been, its so hard to be interested in a subject when you see the point of learning it - just to be able to write on a piece of paper to get another piece of paper in return

dont give a damn about chinese, chinese grade's already screwed, why bother?

math... i know i'm screwed cause of the first semester even though i learnt pretty much okay so far.. oh wait, nvm i'm screwed anyway

hmm ihs, its a decision on whether i want to subject myself to memorising an otherwise interesting stack of notes about venice

sounds stupid but i think school rather much kills your interest for a subject that would otherwise be interesting. oh well. you realise that school isnt so much about gaining knowledge but its just to get a degree to get a job to get money to buy food and drink and shelter

to survive

ok nvm i admit its really flawed logic since whether i gain knowledge is up to me and blahblahblah but i dont see any point cause i dont see any practical use for gaining certain knowledges

*looks at bio and chem and physics on time table and scoffs*

2005-09-11T16:08:00.000+08:00

noooo i screwed up the intro for my praise but at least i got the 6/8 beat correct for indecribable AHAHAHAHHAHAH FEAR ME ALL YOU NOOBZZZ ^^/):

bleargh school is gonna start tmr... isnt it so awfully SIAN. i havent done ZERO STUDYING, and not to mention that i cant remember any significant aspects of learning for chem and physics other than stupidstupid stochiometry which i totally suck at and like... RHO

omg i'm so freaking screwed for science

hmm and math too oh well

ghargh wdv is screwed for all subjects

aaaaaah

and yay now my post is sounding stupid because i am running out of things to say other than chris kng was being utterly moronic yesterday ): and that i have 78000 points in yg and that daryl like to sms me when i am sleeping in the car and listening to music and waiting for a reply from a certain someone whom is the manifest of uselessness... so useless that she didnt even come to be useless -.-

yay now my post is sounding timmish/harrisonian

whoopdee freaking doo

2005-09-10T00:33:00.000+08:00

after a particularly insane convo with a certain WOMAN... i have learnt a few valuable lessons in 'logic', or lack of it.

Rule 1:

if you like something, and you like something else, those two things are equal

example: i like muffins, and i like carrots, so THEREFORE, muffins = carrots!

Rule 2:

if you say something about someone, that something applies to everybody with the same name

example: chris is blur, and since chriskng has the same name as chrisong, both of them are blur

(not that its false but i'ts just as example ^^)

Rule 3 :

this rule is very difficult to explain in words so just look at the example to understand what i am talking about

example : chriskng views chrisong as being 'slightly blur', i view chriskng (and chrisong) as being 'very blur', so we can work out an equation as follows ->

chriskng = chrisong
chriskng = very blur (my viewpoint)
chrisong = slightly blur (chriskng's viewpoint)
(my viewpoint) very blur = slightly blur (chriskng's viewpoint)
thus chrisong = slightly blur

?!

Rule 4:

good + good = bad!

example: chrisong = good, me = good (go on cough to death you morons -.-)
BUT chrisong + me = ANGST
AND ANGST = BAD
so therefore, GOOD + GOOD = BAD

a less subjective example would be this :
milk = tasty
ketchup = tasty
but milk + ketchup = sick crap

which kinda makes sense but when you think about the good + good = bad thing it doesnt make sense at all :S

What the 'prophet' has to say about her newly made rules:

"i love my logic (:"
"hey i have good logic k!!!"

&%^T#&@)^@&#)^&)

2005-09-06T19:14:00.000+08:00

i know that i have no ambition in life... really, i cant think of what i want to be when i grow up, can tthink of what i want to do when i break free of the train track called school

but i have a dream

i dream that i will one day be a worship leader, leading the congregation as one voice to praise and worship and give thanks. the theme will be simply giving thanks and giving Him praise for all he's done in our lives. i will play the most meaningful songs, songs that truly speak of how indescribable, how no words can describe how much we should thank Him.

i will give thanks to God and to glorify God alone and not to anyone else or most of all, myself.

i dream that i will see people moved, i will see people's hands lifted involuntarily to God, i will see people touched by God while worshipping Him. i want to make them realise just how much God has done in their lives, like he has done in mine

i will make it not simply just a time of worship, a routinely task, but i will make it the greatest offering i could possibly give to God in return for all he's done for me. while i am worshipping i will feel as if there is nobody else near me but God. i want to thank God for everything, and everything. even things in the past like whats happening now, thank Him for bringing my family back safely, thank Him for watching over me and my sister as we stayed at home ourselves, thank Him for giving me relatives that care so much to the point of my irritation.

i dream that God will make a way for me in my unambitious life.

i think i'll try to make this dream a reality.

2005-09-04T18:02:00.000+08:00

Indescribable

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of Spring
Every creature unique in the Song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable
You placed the stars in the sky and you know them by name.
You are amazing God!
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God!

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gave source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and you know them by name.
You are amazing God!
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and you love me the same
You are amazing God!


sigh! what a meaningful song that is simply an all out praise song to how great God is... we're playing it this sunday among some of my most favourite songs... really cant wait ^^

2005-09-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

bah havent found much to blog about for the past few days... newfound freedom has proven to be rather distracting. thanks all who came yesterday and livened up my house ^^

had quite a discussion with my tuition teacher today about 'usefulness' in that sense. she told me about her brother in law who was so uselesss he couldnt do ANY housework and couldnt even tidy up his own room... but he was a lawyer, so she was saying about how she would always look down on him. but with valid reason

i think it shows that grades dont prove a person's ability to contribute constructively to society other than to use that stupid piece of paper (maybe laminated) to get a job, that stupid piece of paper that supposedly is the most accurate measure of your ability

that stupid piece of paper that you spend a full quarter of your life working for, assuming you die of old age

not very happy but not excessively disappointed with my term average of 67, maybe if i didnt do so damn badly in chinese i would have gotten higher

heck i even got 65 for chem, how impossible... and i suppose ihs had quite a big part, considering that i only got a freaking 19/30 on my essay because i didnt put bloody footnotes... what the hell, is that not such a stupid reason to be marked down? oh well suppose its all my fault for thinking that it was stupid and redundant

proves thaty sometimes you jsut have to follow blindly so that you dont die... the irony

the holidays are here and church is coming with holy communion in tow, i'm so happy to be rostered for next sunday and probably next next sunday as well... and i really love the songs that are coming up, which include:

my praise
amazing love
indescribable

whoopee, now i am faced with this predicament of transporting two guitars to church with only one bag

argh

-edit-

"a thin line separates life and death" that was the title for my chinese composition which i was actually quite excited to do but got terribly distracted... i think its quite true, you are either alive, or youre dead, theres no way you can be in between. (hears kenny shouting "SLOWWW")

whatever

-end edit-

2005-08-31T20:09:00.000+08:00

ahh teachers day celebrations... the educator was hilarious and made up for the rest of the 'concert'

which was utter crap btw... heck at least get a better singer, i meant like, when the small guy sang i thought it was meant to be a joke... like last year's ac superstart guy nathaniel that acted like william hung yeah?

oh well i dont have much to say about today and cant think of anything to write

i cant wait for friday too =)

2005-08-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

as teachers day is in one hour's time i shall hurry up and blog because i really should be sleeping.

i think its quite stupid to give presents to the teachers just cause you HAVE TO... sheesh noone made it a requirement?! so dont give if you dont mean it! (except ian of course ^^)

and after reading tim's blog i had a concussion due to immense amounts of suck-upness. but thats no offence if tim's just being who he is and not being a hypocrite, which i believe he isnt, even though certain people got extremely annoyed with his post... the thing is, if the world didnt have pple like tim who actually see the good side of 'bad' people then it'll be IMBA.

sigh chris didnt get head prefect! oh WELL but she's in the central committee and is extremely happy about it so i'm happy for her! anyway she said she didnt really want the head prefect position cause she "doesnt want teachers and all picking on her so much and doesnt think she can be so guai all the time" and no daryl mgs would NOT burn down even if she DID become head prefect.

i think its really stupid that i NEED daryl and ian to actually help me TALK so that people would actually freaking LISTEN, so reputation's everything huh?! how very retardedly shallow.

i could start an entire rant on the stupidity of using reputation to judge someone before you even get to know him but i shant since i have to wake up at 5:30 and i wont be getting my eight hours of sleepy sleep if i stayed up longer

and also cause no one would damn bloody listen.

"but theres already less than eight hours left!"
"ah yes, LOGIC WINS THE DAY!!!"

-chong wee

night all

2005-08-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

sigh they just left! but somehow i feel more complete than ever... before they walked out the door we all joined hands and my mum prayed for us... then we hugged! like aww... i even hugged my little sister! =)

then was the really hard part of watching them walk off to take a cab to the airport... ahhh... so emotional right now, feel like crying but i cant help smiling!

God please take care of them

-edit-

we had a nice dinner after all today at cafe cartel, no arguments just plain talking and some laughing as me and my (elder) sis made feeble attempts to educate the rest of my family about russell peters =)

-end edit-

2005-08-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

i was quite annoyed at the insensivity of my older sister today, here is my dad trying to plan a nice dinner for the family as a kind of last get together meal before my parents and younger sis go off to manchester tomorrow for a piano competition for a whole week, leaving me and my older sis to fen for ourselves.

and here is my older sis being uncooperative and not wanting to go out cause she wants to study, i think thats very selfish... so in the end we end up buying dinner back from parkway parade and having a regular sunday dinne.. sigh

it may be hypocritical of me to say this but i was quite angry at my older sis being so insensitive and seeing the importance of this dinner that my dad so lovingly wanted with good intentions.

*tears welling up here*

i just wonder, what if an accident have happened on their trip? what if they perished? and the last memory we would ever had was jsut a regular dinner, and the haunt that a precious family bonding time had been thrown away? it hurts me so to see sth like that happen, i think i shall try to be as cooperative as possible to my parents and return their love for me.

i'm really going to miss them over this week

*the first drop falls*

2005-08-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

as hysterical screams and yells resounds from upstairs, getting louder and louder, i think the cane was brandished... like an animal

i begin to realise what ian talks about his friction between his family where everyone yells and shouts at each other. oddly enough its my younger sister, the oh so good and naive and most 'loving' towards my parents, that is screaming and shouting and stamping.

meanwhile i sit here stressed out at the looming chinese tuition tmr, the pressure to not let my tuition teacher whom i respect so much down, the pressure to make good use of it and excel in my chinese o-levels.

for what?

sry really busy and worn out, leviticus talk wasnt enlightening, chris why werent you there! :(

2005-08-24T16:38:00.000+08:00

i have absolutely no comment about the discussion with a certain PERSON except that its really exasperating and dissing when you try to bring the discussion back on-topic and people shut you up and call you stupid for doing so.

you mean what i'm saying is totally retarded? or you dont realise that we are out of point? or you dont see that we arent solving the main issue at hand? or do you judge me before you even stop to think what i say.

i also think its really stupid how unaware some people are of their own actions, then put up a defensive front when it is suggested that they should 'practice what they preach'. and sorry sean if i've unreasonably accused you, but you should know yourself, whether you want to tell me or not.

and anyway if not so much affected and angry at the fact that she scolded me for no reason but rather at her flawed logic. and watching her bitch about stuff that makes no sense at all is immensely amusing.

=/

procastination of tuition chinese work is bad.

-edit-

ok nvm -.-

-end edit-

2005-08-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

hmm here's my timetable for today

woke up at 10:30
played one round of dota where stupid people left so i gave up
played warcraft three night elves campaign

lunch at 1:30

read harry potter till 2
eyes got tired and napped till 6

dinner

continued and finished night elves campaign

well kaijun i know you love HER very much and i applaud you for your tolerance and acceptance. but you must realise that you saying that she 'teaches well' has nothing to do with our claims on her being an intolerable bitch.

you must understand why we hate her and argue on equal grounds.

but nevermind, i shall attempt to aid you in your mission against xsh, even though it might be too late to try getitng a new teacher, it would do her good to at least have feedback on her screwed up teaching methods:

firstly, remember the time when she misinformed us about what to study? that shows vast incompetence. also remember the way she replied justin when he asked her whether the format for the mid year exams was going to be old and new. she replied "what do you think?" an example of how bitchiness affects academic performance, if we had been better informed we would have been able to prepare for the exam better and hopefully not spoil our chance at excelling for once because other teachers would be marking the papers

which brings me to my second point, which is her nonsense way of marking our work and tests. take the most recent test for example, she has prepared answers for the personal response questions; are we to be marked down because our opinions do not match those of hers? of course not, how screwed up. and she also didnt even tell us how we could improve and do betetr in the test. and then there is the issue about our projects, it is obvious that her focus is not on content, but rather on the aesthetic value of the project itself. this is wrong, are we to do like wise and shift our focus to the outward beauty of the project in order to get high marks? she is teaching us wrong values and placement of priorities and this is intolerable.

her screwed up priorities and methods of marking has already affected our chinese grade and thus our overall average, she is hindering our progress not only in this aspect, but also in the sense that she is being counterproductive to the purpose of school itself : education. you realise that because of the stupid way she is teaching us, we have learnt basically nothing except that in order to please her we must do well in assignments and test and in short, give her what she wants. teachers are not meant to hinder us, but are supposed to help us grow in knowledge.

there are other aspects about her that are not to be condoned, like her personality and her shallowness and biasedness, but those are not important, we may hate a teacher for his/her personality but if him/her can teach then thats already fulfilling his/her purpose and doing his/her job.

even though i may have a personal dislike for her and that teachers should not affect our interest in the subject and that we should do well in the subject regardless of the teacher; the fact remains that her stupid values and wrong focus render it impossible for us to actually do well unless we succumb to her demands and lose focus of the subject of chinese itself, and that our grades have been affected as a result.

this post is meant to help you kaijun,and also to try to let people know the enormity of having her as our teacher. i have tried to keep this post as impartial as possible. however you want to go about trying to make a difference about xsh, as long as its for the better you have my full support...

oh well

2005-08-22T19:46:00.000+08:00

it seems that school days are starting to become more and more slack... take today for an example, we had absolutely no proper lessons except maybe chem which i am proud to say i didnt fall asleep in for the first time (:

hmm i really have to think of more interesting things to say other than merely reliving the events of today... ermerm *ponders*

darly wants me to rant about t3h fu4N about her unneccessary and uncalled for bitchiness that was displayed today morning... for those of you that were unfortunate enough to be present, you should realise that she had NO BUSINESS to be in the class and that she didnt do anything except turn off the lights and yell at us

"sir you should have just told her to piss off since it was your class" - tien

i couldnt agree more. oh well maybe she was miffed at daryl's sarcasm during assembly, or maybe it was jsut cause she didnt like me and picked on me during assembly for no good reason (yes i really wsnt talking -.-)... in the meantime i shall attempt to fathom the RATIONALE behind her freaking "turn off the lights" action

is she trying to make us shaddap and look towards the light switch and see her deformed face? what a despicable exploitation of human nature... and it doesnt work since after a while people will realise that she's the ONLY person that actually DOES something so unspeakably retarded and hence we learn NOT to look at the light switch... so her stupid method has FAILED

HAH... and i would have thought after eleven(?) years of plauguing this school she would have actually learnt SOMETHING. oh well the whatever theory me and daryl have conceived clearly states that:

-we are unable to understand her
-not because she is too superior
-but because she has sunk to such an unfathomable area
-such that we are unable to bring ourselves down to even THINK of trying to fathom the true extent of her degeneration

thus, words like retarded, stupid and dumb are simply our humanly ways of trying to describe her aptly... when in actual fact the closest we can call her is simply FUAN

but oh well i havent actually got to know her so i cant really judge how smart or how dumb she is... actions and words alone do not determine one's intellectual capability. hmm but that is not why i hate her

i hate her cause simply put, she is a CITAG, unreasonably and unneccesary, rather like a certain teacher from 3.8 who is the epitome of a woman who has never smiled.

biased teachers should all go and die

oh well so THE POINT IS that i hate her because she is biased and bitchy, not because i think she's stupid so dont go around calling me a hypocrite

2005-08-21T20:22:00.000+08:00

hmm okay after today's worship and band jam i have realised that i am horrigible at plucking and right hand muting... okay i shall try to improve and brush up on my n00bish skillzz :(

today's sermon was rather enlightening to me, rev kenneth huang touched once again on the topic of "many parts one body, many hearts one church"... he talked about how all of us should be equal and respect each other, and not be proud and consider others below us.

basically : dont be egotistical and have a superiority complex, if not we wont be able to function together properly as one church

haha after saying that the song "one voice" came to mind, i loved it so much during youth camp... so meaningful

"let us be one voice that glorifies your name, let us be one voice declaring that you reign, let us be one voice in love and harmony, and we pray o God, grant us unity"

*chills* oh well i shall attempt to talk about egotistical people without sounding ranty... quite impossible but please pardon :S

well its one thing to know your strengths and be proud of them, but its entirely different to know them and boast and brag about them... and put other people down. (disclaimer for kenny: if you think i'm guilty of the whole guitar ego please refer to the first sentence thanks) ego is defined as having an exxagerated sense of self importance, and with that comes looking down on other people as a free gift (or curse, however you want to put it)

i have been the victim of the ego of many people, so i of all people should know how hurting it is to be put down. on another hand its good cause my self esteem is destroyed so theres no way i can become egotistical

thanks (?!?!?)

oh well i shant rant but i think certain people should actually be aware that they are treating other people (no not just me) like dirt, both in terms of intellect and usefulness

i'm a lot smarter than you think i am, and if you laugh or gag or think i am talking rubbish then you can go to hell

hmm now thanks to chris i am suddenly reminded of the life changing play i participated in in sec one... loved it so much and missed it dearly

"cause you are special in every single way,
and i love you just as much no matter what they say.
with every heartbeat every little breath,
i love you so so trust e when i say that, you are special"

"so keep on smiling through these troubled times,
hand in my hand we'll take each day,
theres no one else who can keep us apart,
if you let me into your heart"

2005-08-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

gah i cant think of anything to blog about except that like today seemed to whizz past like WHOA...

maybe its casue i woke up at 11:30 but oh WELL

its a weird but comforting feeling when you feel as if you should be doing work but you fid that you dont have any work to do and stone around... but then school has PSYCHOED us into thinking that we should be doing work or worrying about work 24/7 so erm erm...

its WEIRD

oh no playing tmr for church and i cant even play F properly argharghargh

congrats to all the people who got whatever post and whatever position during etmr or whatever blah blah blah

i think the warcraft 3 storyline pwnz all

hmm

2005-08-19T22:16:00.000+08:00

im tired of you questioning my intelligence and saying condescending things like:

"thats an INSULT btw"
"do you even know what (whatever word) means?"

im tired of you calling me a retard when i make a mistake due to a misunderstanding or simply cause i didnt hear sth

im tired of you judging people's intelligence (including me) by their actions

im sick of these things you do, but i dont hate you, i hate the things you do

and if you still think i hate you or you dont even know who you are

oh well

out of point:
-leviticus talk was good-

2005-08-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

firstly i would like to say that mdm xsh is a retard... she has proper set answers for a freaking opinionated question, i think she was on the verge of writing the set answer on the board and asking us to copy it down was she not?

not to mention that the passage was immensely stereotypical and was already bad enough and didnt need to be marked by a stereotypical teacher

but then again pple just diss me for saying this as pissed-offness for not doing well and yet again nothing i say shall help

it never has

we won rugby! argh i think acs should start losing rugby because i think its stupid that we should go there and waste our time when we dont even freaking want to... and also cause i think its stupid that people are admitted into acs(i) based solely on their performance on the sportsfield... let them go join the darn sports school and not poseurise acs anymore.. okay that was rather stereotypical but oh well

let the prefects go there and blindly follow their duty shall we?

shrug

2005-08-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

i was about to say sth else about they way pple perceive intellect after seeing how deluded gen huong was today in calling me a f***tard for not obeying and submitting to the supreme anti intellect of ncc

but i realised that even if i did no one would give a bloody damn and will still think i'm just being stupid and retarded and trying to "justify my supreme retardedness and stupidity"

so i shant say anymore

and dont call me a pissass for not saying anything, not like you would change anything if you read it anyway

so i shant waste my time and energy trying to convince people

on to chinese tuition work

2005-08-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

sigh i am quite tired now i just wanna flomp on my bed and sleep

i hate tuesdays... wat exactly is the point of making such a gruelling dragging timetable? are they trying to take hatred emphasis of monday r sth... bah

i think its quite dumb how so many people havent even started on their ihs and they think they can finish it in one day and do it properly...

i used to think like that too but i was proven wrong and fortunately found out in time.

why is it that daryl aways talks about what i want to talk about anyway, me of all people should hate stereotyping but oh well... seems that the world, or sean at least, judges a person's intelligence by his/her behavior.. dumb logic

when will people realise that doing stupid things =/= being stupid?

oh well say what you want i know what i jsut said wont change a thing

-edit-

i got 19/25 for adv math test when i thought that the highest i could get was 13... hope i made it up to you sir

-end edit-

2005-08-15T18:20:00.000+08:00

hmm okay today started off by me waking up at 6:15 by my dad's call that ian had arrived so that i could give him a lift to school since h was far too lazy to get to school by himself hmmm...

or it was impossible to get there in half an hour considering that the bus only came at 6:15 ^^

anyways, worship was okay.. once you're actually up there and playing seems that all your nervousness just disappears! oh well after that i had to tolerate a lot of stupid people who complained that the guitar was out of tune blah bloody blah...

not my fault if they want to care so much and focus on the instruments, should go and die.. sorry for blaming you tim (does he read my blog? =/)

somehow, even though i slept at 10:15 last night i still felt sleepy during chem class.. like dope. and we couldnt even sleep during lang arts a cause the whole period was jsut wasted doing that stupid crap writing again blargh.

oh well i have to tweak my ihs nooo there goes my perfect word count...

tonnes of hw to do.

argh

2005-08-14T21:01:00.000+08:00

ah i loves one in vison one in christ, brings back many fond memories of last years church camp ^^

yg was veery fun and engaging but did not abandon the spiritual aspect of bs, dean rocks =)

muggin for a math wish us luck for tmr's worship

gonna sleep at 9.30 bye

2005-08-13T22:13:00.000+08:00

just got back from a total waste of time

3 hours of sitting in a restaurant waiting for crappy food to arrive

fifteen minutes in between each dish

didnt even eat a freaking proper dinner for all there were

only ate two prawns

didnt even cut the freaking cake or sing the freaking birthday song

happy birthday grandpa and my present is being present for your damn birthday dinner and giving you three hours of my time

harsh as it sounds

unloving as it sounds

i am freaking pissed

so there

2005-08-13T16:01:00.000+08:00

ah... i love my chinese tuition even though its only once every two weeks

for an hour and a half

i learn more than a certain incompetent starting-to-be-aware teacher who makes the brilliant observation that we are moving slowly.

i feel confident for my chinese os yay

and my zuo wen's improving even though i still write crap for xsh

oh well i'm running out of things to say i'll blog later

maybe.

2005-08-12T20:11:00.000+08:00

i dont know why you bring all of this up again. you once said you were over it. you were once my "friend". we had good times, lots of them. but now you say its all been a fraud.

you cut me real deep

why are you still angry over the band? you once said you were long over it. but then again if you could make me believe that you were truly my friend, how easy would it be to trick me over such a trivial matter?

i'm not here to argue with you, not to insult you, not to blame you, not to say you have no reason to hate me. just here to tell you how feel and maybe soften your suddenly hardened heart.

maybe.

perhaps you blame me over the inactivity of the band? or that you no longer feel like a member of it? or even that as a result of my entry the band has broken apart?

once again i say that i'm not here to rebuke you, but just how proactive have our members been? seems that i'm the only one that actually wants a jamming session. and if you feel that we've left you out of our chapel worship team or any other worship functions then we, or at least i, am sorry. sorry that you think i killed your passion to worship God, sorry that as a result of that you dont want to join us because of my presence.

really.

you were my friend, brother, whatever you want to call it. i poured out my heart to you, and you to me, its just so incredibly hard to believe that all of it was fake.

i know you probably dont care, as you so outrightly proclaim.

but i do.

say what you want, call me a hypocritical christian. but i'll say what i want:

God bless you

2005-08-11T19:56:00.000+08:00

hmm after returning from daryl's house i am quite convinced that i should do nothing but slack today

doh cant think of anything to say since i practically said like at least 50% of what was in daryl's blog post and he just wrote them down >.<

i refuse to say anything about fab because theres basically no point trying to talk to him or even say anything to him as most people have found out. even kester couldnt talk to him... let alone the person he hates most and has apparently hated all this while while pretending to be his friend (thats me btw)

):

chinese test tmr and i'm not giving a damn about it... like wth half the class actually wanted to write zuowen?! how incredibly dumb

oh well i shall end this post abrupty right here

bye

2005-08-11T00:15:00.000+08:00

upon finishing my lit assignment in one go i have come to understand the joy of work (some of it anyway) aaaah the CONTENTMENT when you hear it printing!

how worthwhile

its really hurting when you discover that someone hasnt really been your friend all this while and then they call you a hypocrite about your own religion

sigh

2005-08-10T16:50:00.000+08:00

hmm i think people who whoop and joy over "beating" other people in KoL or any other online game are retarded and shallow and stupid... like crap its not a competition and KoL is an individual game... besides, what is there to gain from "beating" someone other than temporary childish glee?

if someone ever came up to me and gloated i would slap him

i kinda understand how ian feels about the whole world playing the same game as him, cause with the fellow good players also comes the scum... shallow people with nothing better to do than to talk about nothing but it

no seriously

how would you feel if after a greeting with someone the first thing he asks you is "how are you doing in the game?" wouldnt you feel really insulted? as if you have no value to the other person other than to be your playmate

sheesh

oh well i shant go on ranting because i have just finished my ihs with exactly 1500 words including "(1500 words)" and i want to savour the moment and euphoria of finishing a major assignment

while it lasts

2005-08-10T11:37:00.000+08:00

Sumitomo was a giant Japanese steelmaker that developed a special super-tough steel pipe. They were sure that it would be snapped up by the Americans.

It was a good product, but there was one problem. Sumitomo had hired a Japanese advertising agency instead of an American one.

The agency named the steel pipe Sumitomo High Toughness, to show up its strength. BUt to make it all easier to remember, the agency decided to emphasise the initials of the Sumitomo High Toughness steel pipe as a sort of shortened brand name. So, in a series of huge two-page ads in major business magazines throughout the United Startes, startled customers saw ads like this:

SHT-from Sumitomo
Now, Sumitomo brings SHT to the United States

At the bottom of the ads, Sumitomo assured customers that their product 'was made to match its name'.

TEEHEE ^^"

2005-08-08T20:32:00.000+08:00

jamming was nice

nat day celebrations boring

hmm some people really have to examine why the hell they even go for fop... especially a certain RETARD i know that went twice but obviously not for the right reasons (NO IAN ITS NOT YOU)... i mean, i might be being judgemental, but what should one expect from someone who plays during the sermon and just cant wait for the whole church segment of sunday so that the after-church lan party segment can continue?

and no i'm not being judgemental i actually got to know him (time wasted bloody hell)

i just cant stand people who go for the wrong reasons, its such an insult to the precious few who go there for the PURPOSE it was MEANT TO SERVE... i mean OMG, people that go there because they idolise the bands playing that night, people who go there to use the indoor stadium as a socialising ground.... such an insult to people who go there to praise God, people who bring their non-christian friends along so that they might be converted

well for that moron i talked about just now, i suppose going ONCE is already insulting enough but NOOOO he had to go TWICE. and why? cause my church went on sunday and he didnt want to feel left out.

o.m.g

oh well i cant blame him for being so damn shallow and stupid that e cant even THINK and just merely jumps on the band wagon and thinks that by going for christian activities and going for church means that e is being a good christian

wth?! so what if you go to church and fop and yg and what not?! if you use them for any other reason than to praise God then why the heck do you go in the first place?!

gah useless stupid people... in my opinion only people who actually WANT to praise God and/or wnat to bring people to him should go for fop... why?! cause dammit... thats the WHOLE FREAKING POINT OF IT and its stupid to use it for anything else

oh well i suppose i just wasted my time since everyone will just dismiss this post as usual eric angst and not take me seriously

no one has ever done that anyway

-.-

2005-08-07T00:35:00.000+08:00

"True Story. A religion teacher assigned her class an essay on what makes a good Christian. One student wrote about praying nightly, say no to abortion, banning gay marriage, and donating money. The other student wrote about talking to God and allowing people to enjoy their lives, and supporting gay marriage. The day the teacher was to hand the papers back, she called up the second student and told him she would pray for him when he went to hell. The student asked why would he be going to hell, and why he got an F on his paper. The teacher told him that Catholisim is against gay marriage. The student looked at her for a minute, then said aloud, "I'm gay." The teacher kicked him out of class as if he had said fuck or worshipped Satan. A girl in the back of class who had a boyfriend and was obviously straight got up and left too.

If you would leave the classroom, repost this. It doesn't matter if you're straight, bi, or gay. It doesn't matter if you're Catholic or Christian or not. Everyone is a human being and deserves happiness."

i got very angry after i read this, like wth? so we should put our own happiness over God? isnt that just plain selfish? and besides, what the second student said was wrong anyway. even though what he said about talking to God was right, you cant be gay and be a good christian! its like pork murtabak, just impossible...

and besides, the first student's also wrong, praying nightly as though is were a ritual does not make you a good christian anymore than going to church (or yg or going for fop) does. what is the point? praying should be done out of respect to God and because he is our father and we have to thank him daily for what has done in our lives; not as a ritual because you HAVE to... no doubt we have to pray to God everyday but we dont do it for the sake of doing it, just like you dont go to church just because you are forced to or have to... you go to church because you go there to praise and worship God, and thats the same reason we pray

the thing about homosexuality is that theres nothing wrong with it in itself, just dont pursue it unless you can somehow find a way to sure it through counselling and pure determination and through the help of God... its probably very hard for homosexuals but its never too hard to uphold the word of God and do things pleasing to His eye? so the point is that homosexuals should either change their sexual orientation or die single. i know it sounds very harsh but if they do that God will be smiling on them and He would probably make a way for them.

no doubt i would have walked out of the class, not because i support homosexuality, but because i wouldnt be able to stand the wrongness of it all. while it is true that everyone deserves their fair share of happiness, they should only be enjoying it without compromising God.

yeah just my 2 cents... if you want to say anything and have a blog just repost this and give your views..

ciao

views of a fellow christian : http://www.livejournal.com/users/chris_nysb/13621.html

2005-08-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

band night was okish if not being horrendously boring until towards the end

pple really shouldnt go for fop if they dont even bloody know why the hell they are there and put "FOP WAS GREAT!!!" on their msn title

what was great anyway? the music? the socialising? hell yeah

but probably not the opportunity to serve God

sigh

2005-08-05T09:21:00.000+08:00

How You Life Your Life

You tend to deprive yourself of things you crave, for your own good.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintances.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

How Do You Live Your Life?

lol how true.... except for the first one of course =)

2005-08-04T15:20:00.000+08:00

yay early dismissal

stupid stupid math test, such a bloody waste. i mean like, i freaking knew how to do all the damn questions but still.. sigh

plus mr azmi kept talking about peole who didnt do well cause they didnt study and didnt know their stuff... oh the indignance

oh well sorry mr azmi for being a pissass to you and making you lecture the whole class over the misconception that i was complaining that you didnt point out qn 2 as an 'easy' question.

specs fixed.. yay and i found out that my eyesight really isnt THAT bad.. like its 150 in the right eye and 300 in the left haha... oh well considering that i once got my right eye down to zero by the use of some eyedrop thingy..

sigh

2005-08-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

angsting is so much more constructive and useful than desparing i realised.

band practice was decent and quite promising... just hope i dont get screw for going for it because of not going for some useless ncc meeting which a certain retard paul cheong called for because he felt that "we were letting ncc die"

damn straight. why not just bloody let it die?

yay got my guit fixed up, pasted sean's "Sold Out For God" sticker on it

hmm i wuold have started yet another angsty rant about intelligence but i realised that since i posted it a long time ago and no one gave a bloody damn or took it seriously i shant bother...

after all... my actions make me retarded right?

fools

2005-07-31T19:04:00.000+08:00

ah church today followed by captain's bal.. then on to go and service my guitar but noooo the shop was closed =/

i was about to start talking about shallowness or hypocrisy but to avoid being called unoriginal by people like kaijun i shall abort this post

right.

here.

if you want to blame anyone blame peole who think i'm a retard that cant think for myself

yes i am angsting again. too bad if you dont like it.

2005-07-29T22:57:00.000+08:00

sorry if this blog hasnt been updated frequently but eric has been TRYING to do his tuition work

which is supposed to be two weeks worth of work but i'm cramming it into one day

drama not up to expectations but was still okay... oh well =/

bah

2005-07-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

gah daryl's kid Nicodemus is psychotic.

imagine this:

i am standing at an area 50 metres away from him (the furthest i can possibly go while remaining on the same level)

he stomps up to me

and says : "GO AWAY"

-.-"

and also:

he comes up to me and says : "i want to fight"

like DOHHH doesnt he realise tha if he actually DECIDES to do that (while assuming his karate pose nonsense... the scenario would probably end up like this:

tee hee ^^"

2005-07-26T21:21:00.000+08:00

blah july comes to a close before i even registerd than it had began... really

sheesh it still feels as if its the first week of school after the june hols

gah

i hate doing tuition homework

but i hate ncc more

oh well if you havent guessed that i am angsting about the stupid rules of acsi then you are a dumbass

2005-07-24T18:46:00.000+08:00

hmm after reading daryl's and ian's blog post i feel a bit guilty considering that i didnt really listen to the sermon... sigh

never sit next to kenny during a sermon you will never be able to concentrate =/

but thats my fault if i didnt listen anyway

gah i hope chris didnt hate my birthday present too much

whee.. dota! pity daryl didnt come... oh well we still got pwned by the ri guys anyway

bwahahhah i made ian miss his bus stop by talking to him (ok fine it wasnt intentional)

running all the way from kembangan to my house...

sweet and sour fish with rice for dinner

i have just earned like 28 k meat in KoL

stupid lit assignment

if you hate spaces then too bad

2005-07-22T20:22:00.000+08:00

WAHAHA FPS WAS TOTALLY FUN WHOO

whee fear harrison's 1337 hat ^^

"We the people of Neptune will build an asylum which is a madly mad place for madly mad mad people to be madly put madly into so that the madly mad people would not madly disrupt the madly lives of the madly peole in the madly city"

"We the people of Neptune will build a firey fire fire station with firey fire firetrucks which will be firey driven by firey hot fire firemen so that in the firey event of a firey fire there will be firey hot fire firemen to firey counter the firey fire threat so as not to firey endanger the firey lives of the firey people in the firey city"

"POSEIDON!!!!"

w00t ^^"

AAAAH DINNER

gah stupid ian you klutz go and hit the teacher with the bottle... if i hadnt kowtowed to her azmi would have EXPLODED... gah fuan it i cant fuaning remember what i fuaning said...

fuan lah...

whee

2005-07-21T21:14:00.000+08:00

haha seems that the only thing i can remember from today is that the discussion with the FUAN was TOTALLY HILARIOUS...

like dope some people are really so UNSELF-AWARE that its FUNNY

fancy using some stupid thing she said 20 million times and making a mockery out of it and SHE DOESNT NOTICE... oh my bob

ah well... it met expectations i'm sure ^^

2005-07-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

hee ranting about a certain bucktoothed fugly retarded teacher on the way back from sl with daryl is immensely gratifying...

and the scary part is that all our claims were justified and not far fetched... i supose if phuan wasnt a teacher and she said such retarded things i would just go ahead and slap her instead of revelling in utter disbelief and being rendered speechless and gaping

but if she wasnt a teacher she wouldnt even be able to citag at us hmm?

oh sigh... really cant wait for tmr when we get to see her and we have a chance to humiliate her and beat her at her own retarded game... fight fire with fire indeed

but it probably wont work since she's the most freaking unself-aware person i've ever seen...

ah well i guess we just have to wait and see what happenes tmr then

chao

p.s. I GOT THE PICKS WOO HOO

My Terrapin Died

2005-07-19T19:53:00.000+08:00

a lot of things happened today but i am too grieved to talk about them

wahhh :'(

2005-07-18T21:13:00.000+08:00

blah monday

haha i liked tan see keng's worship a lot! oh well but it was kinda spoilt by seeing a certain retard's mouth unmoving during the songs of praise :(

honestly, how can "i could sing of your love forever" be replaced?

sigh i think stereotyping like that is just dumb lah... refusing to sing is refusing to worship God, rejecting Him

and the irony is that some people think that by doing that they are being better christians

sigh

oh well the lessons were okay today i guess... ihs was quite an experience having to share the classroom with a bunch of express boys

blah dun worry i hate the whole stupid ac boy image... esp the sports pple (which make up like 3/4 of the ac pop) are retardedly poser and prob dun even have enough brains to fill an eggcup

dont get me wrong i do not condemn ALL the express pple since most of them are okay and some are really nice

but sigh who am i to judge since people think i'm a retard?

lol flooded classrooms are rather fun

fps meeting was rather pmsy (YES even though a certain incompetent citag didnt come)... i somehow feel that she just doesnt give a freaking damn and just doesnt bloody care about lower class beings (students, us) so therefore she didnt even TRY to get chris into our fps grp

sigh

oh well at least i restocked grasspower at shell

2005-07-16T23:27:00.000+08:00

i just realised that saturday doesnt feel like a saturday without church to look forward to

2005-07-16T23:21:00.000+08:00

there are too many words and terms that are overused such that they have lost their true meaning.

examples:
- i miss you
- thank you
- good bye
- sorry
- i love you
- retard
- stupid
- dumb
- moron
- gay

the list goes on... and lets not forget the most important overused word

- awesome

theres only one person that that should be used on

know who?

2005-07-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

Take the quiz: "Are you a n00b?"

You are a Veteran Congratuations...
Congratulations you are the cream of the crop, the highest form of an Internet Surfer. Wise and intelligent you understand web society like few ever do.

this quiz is really too general

2005-07-14T18:17:00.000+08:00

hmm i just realised that i have listened to sweet home alabama for 45 times since i got it on like tuesday..

listening to it now and probably like 35-40 more times at night

cant get enough of the ELECTRIC GUITAR!!!!

=)

2005-07-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

today had its ups and downs

and since i shant describe the downs due to it being totally unreasonable and uncalled for...

yes this means you mr alvin tan :(

SL!!

theres something incredibly satisfying when you walk up to the class and you see your P2 wave at you and smile at you... awww

anyway reading was pretty alright since this time he didnt like go run away and look at the canteen or stuff... gah? raced him along the corridor to his class haha

hmm the car ride home with daryl and ian was pretty amusing as like we could change from one topic to another and another and another... lol ian is so much nicer to talk to in real life than over msn

=)

gah have to do stupid tuition zuowen and shall decide whether i wanna play dota later

oh nevermind my mind's already made up

2005-07-10T20:37:00.000+08:00

bleh it really doesnt feel like a sunday without church... i kept thinking it was a saturday throughout the whole day

blargh

oh well... it seems that God really answers prayers... somehow especially when it comes to NCC

not once

not twice

but SIX... surely it cant be just a coincidence, my faith in strenghtened

okay let me list them

i prayed for strength, the rifle didnt kill my shoulders and was quite maneagable

i prayed for efficiency, we drew arms really fast and left the camp within like an HOUR... thats really good considering that its NCC

i prayed that training wouldnt be too tough, we had wet weather rehearsal in an airconditioned hall and parade training wasn't really training with it not being proper

i prayed that the sun wouldnt be so hot, the clouds covered it while we did our parade training

i prayed that we woiuldnt have to wear no.1 and die of heat stroke, we wore it but didnt use it

i prayed for rain so that training would be cancelled and postponed, it rained halfway into training, just before we were supposed to do a full dress rehersal, training was cancelled from then onward and there was no postponement.

i think the rain part really touched me, before that we were tempted with a slight drizzle, but then it stopped... when it started i was like "whoa... God you are so awesome"... but training carried on anyway despite the drizzle and i got quite annoyed...

so MAYBE thats why it stopped.. shrug i seem so self important haha

then when it stopped i thought "sorry God if my anger angered you, sorry for not being grateful" and i kinda lost hope

then it RAINED just as our break was about to end

IT POURED... really

while everyone was sitting there and screaming whenever a huge bolt of lightining appeared in the sky... i took and started listening to rain down... haha lame right? but that seemed the most appriopiate thing to do...

rain down on me, rain down on me, here in your presence i am free...

i let the words of the song be my prayer of thanks and praise, then i listened to still..

when the oceans rise and thunders roar, i will soar with you above the storm...

awesome songs for an awesome God indeed

i really need to stop swearing during NCC

bleh =/

2005-07-09T16:29:00.000+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Eric
2. Cockster
3. Stupid

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. ignis
2. eljr2000
3. ignis49 ^^

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My callouses on my fingertips!
2. The straight line through my right palm
3. My screwed up little finger haha

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. MY FREAKING FAT TUMMY.
2. The mole on my chin :(
3. My hair because it refuses to stay up and keeps matting on my forehead

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Chinese
2. Singapore
3. TNS!!

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Walking along in the dark...
2. Drifting away from God.
3. Being called a hypocrite.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. MY COMP
2. MY HANDPHONE
3. MY GUITAR

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Specs
2. Harry Potter shorts
3. Shirt that kenny and daryl were obsessed with it looking bad (and still are)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Hillsong!
2. Planetshakers!
3. hmm any random band that comes up with a song that i like =)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. All in All
2. Did you feel the mountains tremble?
3. My Praise

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Love (duh)
2. Energy!
3. no daoing please

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. I play the guitar damn badly
2. I dont like christine THAT way anymore
3. I am the youngest member of the LWMC music team (among other 15 year olds duh)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. Smile!
2. Eyes
3. Being able to play a musical instrument ^^

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Playing guitar
2. Jumping around and pretending to be a rockstar
3. Jamming for God =)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Lose my fat
2. PLAY COMP GAMESSS
3. oh heck i just want the ability to grant wishes

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. Astronaut! (when i was in kindergarten "-_-")
2. Fish/Guitar Shop Owner
3. Part of a Christian band ^^"

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. New Zealand!
2. USA (simply cause i havent been there before)
3. Korea! (SNOWWWWW)

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Christine
2. Ezra
3. Tap Some Bong ^^" (nah just kidding i cant think of one at the moment)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Own an arowana
2. Get a Fender Stratocaster.
3. Get Baptised.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. Anatomy (Duh)
2. I hate school
3. Erm... i look at girls for partners? -.-

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A CHICK:
1. I enjoy getting out of the house just for the heck of it
2. I think i'm fat
3. I scream when i see a ball flying freaking fast toward me (or a frisbee at night and you only see it when its 50 cm from your face)

THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. Julian
2. Christine (Ong)
3. Daryl/ Kenneth

LOL HOW BOUT JUST EVERYONE TAKE THIS QUIZ HUH??!

2005-07-09T16:19:00.000+08:00

most played songs over the past two weeks:

1.Tong Hua - Guang Liang - 36

2.May It Be - Enya - 32

3.One Way - Hillsong - 24

4.My Best Friend - Hillsong - 21

5.Did You Feel The Mountains Tremble? - Delirious? - 17

6.Shout Your Fame - Hillsong - 11

7.Everyday - Hillsong - 11

8.All That I Want - Planetshakers - 11

9.Always And Forever - Planetshakers - 11

10.Better Than Life - Hillsong - 9

yes yes i know its pathetic...

2005-07-08T22:56:00.000+08:00

after watching a "movement theatre" presentation of "mulan" at ny for $1/4 minutes i have realised that walking through a school at night with no lights is SO SCARY AAAAARGH

so freaky with all the stupid exit signs glowing... argh oh well at least there were others

Your IQ Is 115

Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius
Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

exactly the same as ian's?!?








Your Birthdate: May 12

Being born on the 12th day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life.

The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental.

There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, sometimes "couldn't care less" attitude.



You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression.

Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing.

You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.



You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters.

Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about.

You are affectionate and loving - but very sensitive.

You are subject to rapid ups and downs.



What Does Your Birth Date Mean?


i think its quite freaky how such things can actually have some sense in them =/

2005-07-07T21:02:00.000+08:00

over looking the ib symposium and whatever we did at darren's house today, there was one thing that really disgusted me

francis soo showing his face in our class

okay fine i'm outdated for taking so long to realsie but i think its just so disgusting and sick that someone would actually want to do something so incredibly dumb like modifying his face

and no this post is not meant to be humourous or anything =/

from my perspective i think that he's so freaking disrespectful towards God

God created him to look like that for a reason (before being modified), whatever people think... and being not satisfied with it is like insulting God's creation...

thats bad

oh i'm assuming that he actually went for some stupid surgery cause theres no way an allergic reaction could cause sth like that...

get real

2005-07-05T20:03:00.000+08:00

bleargh

okay first and foremost i would like to say that

GRASS POWER WHEAT GRASS DRINK ROCKS

BWAHAAH it does!!! i think i drank like 1.5 litres of it today ^^ then i told my mom how to buy it so then i can drink it everyday and like DIE

except for that faggoty man on the bottle wrapping =/

hmm phuan was being typically retarded today, maybe even more than usual... ehere is some food for thought, when about to dismiss us she says

"I will release you in 3-5 minutes, whichever comes first"

WTH, that is the singularly

most

retarded

thing

i

have

ever

heard

(other than people saying that life is good or anything that kaijun says)

oh well... i just realised that it is too late for phuan to get braces as they protrude so much she would die of pain if the teeth were FORCED into a PROPER POSITION

oh well... i just realised that for that reason alone... she should do the world a favour and... GET BRACES!!!

cool

3.10 is fun haha

symposium was boring oh well but that was probably cause i wasnt paying attention and kenny was too busy talking about dota to actually concentrate on *AHEM* "important issues"

-.-

oh well me and daryl are like gonna lose the bet we put on how long chong wee's blog will last before dying

2005-07-03T16:41:00.000+08:00

oh sigh my first time playing for church worship and GUESS WHAT?!?!??!

my guitar string broke

like.... DOH!!!!

sheesh oh well at least it was the high e string and not the g string (NO PUN INTENDED SHEESH).... haha some kinda attempt at being optimistic

restringed during the sermon =/

huh games was quite fun and amusing except that the war games lasted like two minutes

haha

2005-07-02T22:32:00.000+08:00

bleh through ncc today there was something that really broke my heart... like since the guard of honour training was stupidly scheduled on next sunday

which means i miss church

so like i was complaining

"argh stupid thing... i need to go church"

"why do you want to go to church?"

"what?"

"why do you want to go to church? you shouldnt use it as an excuse because over the past few years i havent observed any change in you."

*shatters*

i guess i was pretty insulted by being called a hypocrite but like... i know i have been pretty much a disgrace to christians over sec one and sec two, so all of you hate me and stuff

sigh

i really have to work on projecting a better image of Christ

=/

2005-07-01T21:03:00.000+08:00

bleargh havent been blogging for quite a while... i have reason but you people would probably dismiss them as excuses so... BLEH

ahh yes i forgot to record just how much i enjoyed music team worship!

like WHOA i'm like introing the first two songs and like doing nice old plucking for the other songs...

yay the spontaneous plucking really helped if not i wont have even wanted to pluck in the first place =)

OH OH YESTERDAY MERVYLYN GOH LIKE SAID THAT THE BAND COULD PLAY IN AUGUST FOR CHAPEL!!! WHOAAA

blah we still arent jamming -.-

hurm maybe i should change my blog name

IAMSOVERYANGSTY!!!

but that would be copying cw

=/

2005-06-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

The Sparrow Song

Almighty God, so wonderful,
he stirs the raging seas
he blows the peaceful wind

Almighty God, so powerful
he turns the darkest night
into the light of day
over and over again

And if one little sparrow falls,
and one of his children cries,
the Lord who is over all,
he understands the reason why

And even the smallest prayer,
he hears and meets the need,
the Lord who is everywhere,
and still is there

for you, and me

maybe you should just take some time and reflect on the meaning of the words in the song... how true indeed, that the Lord answers even the smallest prayer...

which he has proven to me time and time again

2005-06-27T16:09:00.000+08:00

oh well... the philosophical first day of school has come and gone =/

i think last night impacted me quite a lot... this is what happened...

i have just finished blogging on my reflections for the holidays, in a sense talking to God...

then i hear a nice song on my music player then i decided to play my guitar and worship till past twelve; into the new term

just as i am setting up the equipment my mom comes in and sees that the comp is still on, even though its as good as off because i wont be using it anymore. she gets pissed and yells at me. i tell her that i was doing my reflections, she says why didnt i do my work earlier?

she stomps out of my room without saying good night

i sit there with the guitar in my hands, so overcome with sadness that i totally lose my mood to play anymore... i was really upset

so i just sit there, then this really peculiar thing happened...

my fingers just started plucking

like wow... i dont know but i think like i expressed my feelings through my fingers subconciously as i was too upset even to say a proper prayer to ask for comfort and understanding... perhaps i also talked to God through it?

i ended up just doing that for an hour, sitting in my chair, staring blankly at nowhere in particular, sometimes closing my eyes, but the music carried on

oh well i dont know but i'm just getting so tired that my mom wont even let me explain and just jumps to conclusions.. fancy yelling at me over something like that and when i am just feeling so emotional

i hate it

but at least i didnt go to sleep angry

Reflections

2005-06-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

okay the end of the hols has come... so sad, but i guess its time to reflect

i think i shall address my spiritual growth...

so i got into the music team and will be playing this sunday for youth sunday, i am going to do my best to glorify God through playing and God alone since he called me to do this and gave me the oppurtunity...

thank you Lord

i also realised that listening to nothing but christian music has made it so easy to put God in every part of my life... so now i make an effort to listen and actually think abut the lyrics and how they can relate to me and my relationship with Him.

i guess the Lord has shown me the way and quite a few signs as to what i should do with my life... maybe i am slowly starting to see that life really isnt that pointless... and that i live to worship God and to live according to his will... which in order to do i made the most heart wrenching decision

theres pain in the offering indeed

i guess all these things like christian music are really not wrong in themselves, it's just the attitude we take towards them. all christian songs are after all... praising God, nevermind who sings it or whatever, it all comes down to the song itself. i used to hate hymns so much, but now i see that they still praise God no matter how much i dislike them for various stupid reasons, so i dont shun them anymore

thank you Lord for showing me the way

however i still have my doubts... well in terms of schoolwork i dont think it was a holiday well spent, i didnt really catch up on most of my subjects like i should... i just hope that God will make a way for me

like he has always done.

Dear Lord,

I thank you for this time of holiday and free time you have given me father
thank you for revealing to me more of what your plan for me is
thank you even for the bad times father than you have helped me turn those to my advantage
I thank you that you have helped me grow more in your faith father, that i may no longer doubt your plans for me

I just pray that you will help me be focused on you father as i worship you this coming sunday, that i will worship You and You alone, and truly that i may have a heart of worship as i come into Your Presence father

I thank you for this oppurtunity that you have given me just to offer what i have to You

Thank you for everything You've done in me Lord, thank you for showing me your way and showing me that it is not easy to follow

but You have helped me along

For all You've done father,

i thank you

in Your Son's most precious and holy name,

amen

2005-06-25T21:08:00.000+08:00

bleargh

yet another eventful day, but before i carry on about the MRT SAGA i shall briefly describe some stuff...

mr azmi is good at insulting people while making it funny and smiling all the way and making it sound like a joke.

example:

azmi: "Christine looks like a horse"
dunno who: "aah sir you are so bad, i thought you said she looked like a man"
azmi: "but eric seems to be insulted"
dunno who: "so you're saying that its an insult to men by saying that Christine looks like them?"
azmi: "no i thought that eric was feeling insulted ont eh behalf of the horses"

OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT.. -.-/^^

and that kaijun is easily defeated... fire against fire indeed ;)

okay now on to....

THE MRT STATION

bleh i really dunno how to describe this, such an experience!

okay i was with daryl and we got off city hall station

what do we see? a bunch of people... no wait make that a HORDE of people crowding onto the train on the other side of the train

the train cant leave as people are half in half out of the train, thus resulting in daryl and eric having to sit and wait and watch.. but guess what?

we dont feel impatient, angry or frustrated at any of this, rather, we get amused and interested

so we just sit there and watch this interesting spectacle of humans

and watch

and watch

and watch

soon a man sitting close to us starts talking to us about the train and stuff, guess he heard our musing... thus he makes a bet with daryl

whether the train would leave empty or packed

after more and more waiting, the train finally leaves...

packed like sardines... i mean like, if the train doors were to open the person closest to the door would BOUNCE OUT

so therefore daryl earns a dollar... HAHA

second train comes and the same thing happens, though on a much smaller scale

then finally when the third one comes we pile in and everything

and we go home

hooray

sigh it was such a memorable experience that i would really like to do it all over again ;)

*disclaimer: okay i am a horrible describer.. these kind of things are very difficult to describe because yo must actually be THERE to experience it properly and understand.... maybe daryl can do a better job =) *

2005-06-24T15:19:00.000+08:00

this happened a long time ago (well maybe not too long) but its still very important to me

spec course

i prayed for efficiency and not to waste time so much on the last day

we ended an hour earlier than usual

we didnt have to waste time standing around doing nothing as we we not allowed to do drill where we usually conducted our parades

basically minimal time wasted

God answers even the smallest prayers indeed